Undiagnosed I Am @ The Beginning Of A Long Journey.

[GenerousMoon]

I am a single 46yr old woman who has been dealing with anxiety my entire life. I have two children & four grandchildren. Officially diagnost in 2014. My pcp feels I may have ptsd & wants me to see a therapist. I am still at the point where I am avoiding from going to a therapist. I know therapy have worked for many who gone through therapy. Bringing out those emotions scares me to death. I have everything hidden deep down inside.

 

[ladee]

Welcome @GenerousMoon, very glad you are here ! I very much relate to the high level of anxiety. Have been fighting the same thing, as long as I can remember.
The emotions that might be brought up? Most good therapists take time to set some groundwork. For trust to be built between the two of you. You don't just go in and get into the feelings... I don't feel too many of us are capable of that... we need to feel safe and trust the person we are talking with.
I understand that fear. Pretty sure most of us here feel the same..
So hope you keep coming here and sharing and reading...see that you are not alone and you are safe here. Many will relate and let you know it's ok to feel what you are feeling. This is a great community with a lot of very caring and supportive people... glad you are here..

 

[Nevermore]

Hello and welcome @GenerousMoon
I understand the fear of therapy too and didn't really partake until I was so desperate I was willing to try anything- but I have to say, it's been so incredibly freeing for me.
Of course, you have to find the right therapist for you before placing too much trust in them, and I had a bad experience before this one. It really is worth it though if you find the right person.
Believe it or not, bringing out the emotions that I had always feared made me feel alive again. And hopeful.
I'm glad you found this site and wish you much healing along the path!

 

[intothelight]

@GenerousMoon Welcome to the forum! :)

If possible, it is important to get a proper diagnosis from a mental health professional, as knowing what is wrong is the first step in knowing how to make it better. Therapy can be scary, but it is important to remember that you don't just dive in and start addressing trauma until you have the tools in place and know how to manage the fallout. There is a lot of great information on this site and I hope you find it helpful.

 

[GenerousMoon]

Welcome @GenerousMoon, very glad you are here ! I very much relate to the high level o...

Thank you for your kind words. This whole accepting is crazy. It was totally different when I did not have a word for it. March 2014 diagnosed with anxiety. My current pcp since july 2014 have been watching me closely. She is like the greatest and the only dr I ever trusted. She have been trying to get me to a therapist for a year.

 

[GenerousMoon]

@GenerousMoon Welcome to the forum! :)

If possible, it is important to get a...

Yes, you are absolutely correct. There is no way I would be able handle all of my trauma too quickly. There are certain things & certain people i avoid to lesson my thoughts. Thank you

 

[EveHarrington]

Welcome to the forum. :hug:

 

[Deleted member 34328]

Welcome @GenerousMoon

I can identify with some of what you've shared. You're very right. It is scary and a big step to find a good therapist. - emphasis on "good". I didn't commit to one until I really felt the chemistry was right and I felt safe with him and his office. It took more than 1 session to decide that. He's been walking with me ever since (4yrs now).

For me, one of the hardest things, was to accept what I felt was a title or label. Made me feel less of a person or as if I had a post-it note on my forehead for all the world to laugh at. I've since learned there is no shame in being diagnosed with PTSD. Irony is that it's making me a stronger person for it.

I hope you find some encouragement and helps on this site. I have.

 

[Deleted member 28403]

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