I Want To Be Dead

[Stickler]

I would like to end my own personal portion of the world, now. I am sick of being here. I am no good. I am horrible.

 

[EveHarrington]

:hug:

You're not horrible or no good.

Is the school stuff really stressing you out now?

 

[SoSadGuilty]

I would like to end my own personal portion of the world, now. I am sick of being here. I am no good....

Stickler I know how you feel but please hang in there. You help so many on this site so how can you be no good. You may be sick of being here but you are good. This feeling is so shitty and overpowering I know but you are so strong and have gotten through this before.

 

[JEKBreatheandBelieve]

I don't think you're horrible. But I can't tell you the number of times I have said this of myself and that I am no good. I usually follow up with I don't deserve to live and I am so tired of trying. But if I can hang on long enough, things get a little better or the intensity of the feelings lessen at least a little so that I can keep going. Someone, I believe it was on here, once told me "It's not a bad life, it's a bad day." And yeah, there's plenty of evidence for it having been a bad life, but there's also evidence for in the hear and now and not the past for it being a bad day (or period of days), but these will pass again. Such is the tide of PTSD. I hope you can find ways to lessen the intensity of your feelings. I think you are a very valuable member to this community and that's a good start at being a good person and not being horrible.

 

[joeylittle]

I'm so sorry you are feeling this bad, @Stickler. I know it won't help much, but you aren't horrible, and as much as right now hurts, there's always a chance for the really bad feelings to change. I guess I'm trying to say that right now isn't forever, even though it feels like it's always been like this and it'll always be like this.

Are you safe enough right now?

 

[Bloomy]

Stickler - in my humble opinion you are good. Please hang in there and take one baby step at the time towards something better.
Warm greetings and blessing from me.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I am sorry you feel like this right now. You are a good person to me. I hope that your mind chooses to change your opinion of yourself because it is a lie. Just let this sink in a little okay?:hug:

 

[corvidae]

listen, please, to what the good folks above are saying about you and to you. there's hope and help there, for the taking.

support. strength. light.

 

[Stickler]

Yeah, school stuff. I found out I have to go to the school for my major. It's an hour drive.

 

[SoSadGuilty]

Yeah, school stuff. I found out I have to go to the school for my major. It's an hour drive....

Can you and your car manage the drive for two years? If not, is there any other way to fix this for you?