What's Happening To Me?

[NowYouSeeMe]

hiya, was wondering if this happens to anyone else or if anyone knows what this is?
I have bouts of an hour or more, usually in evenings when I get home from work, where I am sensitive to noise - even talking at conversational levels, I hate lights, I feel like I have butterflies and I'm very, very stressed. I feel kind of nauseous and on the verge of rage. It makes me snappy and actually I can't stand being near any one or anything. I'm upstairs away from family now trying to focus on work to calm things down. I can hear the tv, it's driving me crazy and the neighbours kids are out playing and I'm really mad at them for being noisey. I want to go out shout at them. It's happening almost everyday and driving me crazy and making me feel like crying. I don't know if this is PTSD or not. Whatever it is, it's really, really crappy. Thoughts anyone?

 

[illusionist]

It's strange that you should post this as workmates were only talking about this, in the week. I know my partner who is a normie needs time to unwind from work, just as much as I do.

I would say this is completely normal.

Just find your way of unwinding....maybe headphones and music?

 

[JEKBreatheandBelieve]

When I was working, I would struggle immensely when I got home. I just wanted to tune everything out. Even if I wanted to be with my family, I found it too triggering and exhausting. For me it was the issue of hiding the PTSD and DID all day and so I was just overloaded when I got home. I think it's perfectly natural and something that people without PTSD struggle with as well. Sometimes people just need a breather after work before jumping into the next part of the day.

 

[Casey_03]

I get this and have always suspected it has something to do with hormones. Maybe abnormal spikes in certain hormone levels, not sure. But I also know this always got worse for me after too much caffeine.

 

[Justmehere]

There's no way anyone here could diagnose what could be going on on the interwebs. That being said, based on what you have posted alone, which is very limited info, this isn't enough to suggest PTSD. This kind of super sensitivity to sensory input that can turn into rage can happen with normal life. It can also happen with a variety of medical, neurological, developmental, and mental health conditions. I have experienced times where I get very irritable and snappy with too much sensory input, and it's mostly a PTSD thing - but this symptom alone doesn't mean it is for sure PTSD.

If you have you been through or witnessed first hand life and death trauma or sexual assault, then this might be more likely to be PTSD related. It's also possible that something else is happening even if you went through that type of trauma. If you have other reasons why you suspect PTSD, and this happens at the same time of day as the trauma, then that may suggest PTSD even more.

The one thing that is clear is that this experience is really bothersome to you. Have you considered talking to a doctor or therapist about it?

Something that might help is googling or using the search bar above on myptsd.com for info about grounding techniques. No matter the cause, it might help to try some of them out for awhile to see if they can help you ride the wave of this experience with less distress. Physical exercise with weights especially helps me when I experience something like this - and weights can even been a heavy book. It somehow just helps my nervous system chill more quickly.

 

[NowYouSeeMe]

I too have had times like this when getting in from work. But in the last few weeks since starting therapy it's been so much worse in terms of duration and severity. I have started a 5 minute mindful meditation in my car before going in the house. I'm hoping it'll start to ease things off. Thanks for replying all.

 

[Justmehere]

It's really common for people with PTSD to experience a spike in symptoms after starting therapy. Be sure to talk to your therapist about it and they can help pace out treatment. Mindfulness mediation is a great idea!

 

[Snowflake]

During the day my body and mind are busy. When I get home my body calms down and my mind goes crazy-the parts don't stop talking/arguing , I am easily triggered, irritable, tired.

Yep it's not fun-makes it difficult for my family.

 

[NoWhereKnowWhere]

Sounds like your PTSD cup is full at the end of the day. Here's the article The Ptsd Cup Explanation

 

[NowYouSeeMe]

thanks, will have a read

 

[JEKBreatheandBelieve]

@Snowflake - I just had to press the like button on your post, not because I like your struggle, but because I like the way you worded it and it sounds so much like what happens for me!

 

[Snowflake]

@Snowflake - I just had to press the like button on your post, not beca...

You made me smile :)