I Am Always f*cking Angry And I Give Up

[Repoha]

been so angry that I blackout and have no memory of what occurs during those times.

IT person here; I do as well. I learned via therapy, to feel it coming on so I can get myself out of the situation or decompress somewhere. Deep breathing, metaphors, thinking patterns etc. helped me.

Another good thing I use for anxiety but would work for anger if used in those times is an app called What's Up.

OP, personally though I see a lot of distorted thinking patterns but you arent recognizing as such, in my opinion. So there isnt much changing here you can do until the distorted thinking patterns are changed. Again, just my opinion.

 

[Geburo]

OP, personally though I see a lot of distorted thinking patterns but you arent recognizing as such, in my opinion. So there isnt much changing here you can do until the distorted thinking patterns are changed. Again, just my opinion.

Aweb here again. You hit the nail on the head.

 

[Wajir]

You hit the nail on the head.

Glad I did cause I replied thinking it was a different thread lol. But glad this fits here too!

 

[Abap]

Wow
I haven't read all the replies. Just wanted to say you're so not alone.
For me it's 35 years. It akwSys comes back, thd memories, the bitterness, thd horrible horrible losses of which I can never speak.
I too was taught to be good . I think it just made me bitter holding it all in, trying to help others, trying - desperately trying!!!! - to forgive!!!!
I don't wish pain on him. He is nothing to me, although I guess I do secretly hope he gets to realise the extent of the damage he did one day. It wrecked my family too, not just me.
I hate having this hatred in my heart. It scares me the hardness of these feelings / goes against everything I was taught to believe.
And anyway...just wanted to say I read this and me too!!

 

[Izufo]

Your anger is the veneer on your pain. I had to get very physical to break through the anger. Chopping wood, running, exhausting myself. That's the only way it didn't/doesn't consume me.