Why Does Being Tired Make It So Much Worse?

[NoWhereKnowWhere]

Oh maybe I'm a bit weird with this then. I get all the rest of the posts and I feel that sometimes but if I go beyond tired (and I do quite often when I can't sleep) i get a euphoric feeling that can be quite addictive.

It can also increase dissociative symptoms for me too which can be preferable to being on such high anxiety that I can't sleep for a few days.

I'd much prefer to just be able to sleep but it's just not always possible and the dissociative symptoms can make me feel quite weird especially when I'm experiencing derealisation. But sometimes just feeling anything different is preferable. Especially if I can hit that euphoria like feeling. Maybe it's just me.

 

[Gaining-clarity]

Yes.

When I get really tired from not getting enough sleep, I get agitated, short tempered and grumpy, and ca...

I think this is how it is with me.

 

[Gaining-clarity]

Oh maybe I'm a bit weird with this then. I get all the rest of the posts and I feel that somet...

I've learned to recognize this, and even though it can feel better, I often do things our say things I wouldn't normally say. I feel better but am very detached from reality, so I try not to think that everything's fine now and I'm all better (which is what I would do) then cube down from my high and feel embarrassed for how I behaved.

I do a lot of waiting. I think I'm always waiting for myself.

 

[Mim28]

I'm stuck in the middle between PTSD and adrenal exhaustion, so it has made things terribly worse for me. I have maybe 3 good hours a day were I'm able to function mentally, but not much physically. I try to push myself a bit and I do feel better with some minor accomplishments but the next day I am totally exhausted. I've become hyper anxious and cry a lot. I have to admit I'm depressed over this situation and I am trying super hard to exercise self love and be kind to myself. I pushed myself beyond my physical limits and now I am paying a great price.
I was never a napper, but now I do all the time and fill my quiet time with relaxing activities like reading, movies, and the stress relieve coloring books. I may take up my knitting again and actually try to make something.
It's been a very humbling experience, but I have my faith and I pray better things are coming.

 

[Gadgie]

I've found that by making something with your hands, or repair something, it makes me feel a lot better about myself.

I get that feeling of accomplishment, it's a great feeling! I used to run a second hand furniture business when I was between jobs in the oil industry. I was laid off, and had to do something to pay the mortgage and bills!

I used to get a great feeling after I had restored something, and to sell it on for a profit was the icing in the cake.

 

[NoWhereKnowWhere]

@Gaining-clarity yes exactly as you said.

I would much prefer to be well rested but it just doesn't seem possible at the present. Every cloud as they say.

 

[moshpitmunkey]

When I get really tired from not getting enough sleep, I get agitated, short tempered and grumpy, and ca...

Yeah I can relate to the depressing and apathetic type of tiredness. Sluggish. Unmotivated. Cant get up to do anything. When I'm tired like this sometimes i dissociate more frequently or start feeling like I'm not a real person, if that makes sense, and anxiety reaches an all time high. My only issue I that I can never actually sleep it off or nap to recover. My body and mind wont let me.

 

[lostforgottensoul]

When Im tired (a lot of the time), i have a short(er) fuse, my anxiety is there with it but taking my anxiety meds make the tiredness worse so its a hard, very hard, balace.

Lately its been very bad. Last 3 days ive been completely exhausted and couldnt wake up with coffee or a shower and walked at work on wed like I was drunk almost. It was just the exhaustion which is a physical symptom that plagues me often and it so sucks.

My dog has been waking me up, no collar on, just by moving on the bed which isnt common so i know im not sleeping well or very deep.

It makes it all worse and harder for sure!

 

[Gaining-clarity]

I hope you all find rest for your souls. For years I could not sleep and I don't know how I survived the high anxiety that was my normal. I don't know how I kept a job, and raised my daughter. I'm just amazed that I was able to do anything.

I am so glad that it has eased up. Over the last five years, since being married to a man who really does love me, and being able to rest from the demands of living and supporting life (I was a single mom for 18 years), my anxiety is lessening.

It takes so much time to heal, and the world just does not want to let us rest. We have no choice but to work work work. I got sick and I think think I permanently damaged my health from the continuous high stress of cptsd on top of the stress of supporting a child.

Even now, with all the help of my husband, I need to go so slow through life. I need the freedom to sometimes just stop. Everything. For a long time. Even when I'm ready to come back, I don't come back to a normal level of functioning. I still can't work.

I'm just coming out of a fog now, that was two weeks of emotional flashback. Now I'll need another week to just rest from it, then more time to rebalance as a 47 year old... I'm not a child... I know that again finally... but what a difficult thing to live in two realities, and not be able to be taken care of... to really rest.

I'm sleeping better again. Getting more rest. So maybe the tiredness is not a precurser, like someone here said, but is a result of the exhausting nature of intense stress.

I really pray that you all will be able to find rest for your souls. We need the freedom to rest.

 

[Gadgie]

My body and mind wont let me.

Aye! that's it exactly, your brain is screaming out for sleep, but your body won't let you! It's a horrible feeling, isn't it?