The Profile Pic Thread

[Lola Nocheprieta]

as for the avatar, i depicted what my body feels like; a self portrait of what *i* think I should look like. *** we are all the sum of our pixels

** cough NOT LAME cough **

It's true! Whether DID or not, I think we all have "parts," facets, and hidden pieces, all disintegrating and recombining, kind of floating around in a scary but fascinating soup.

Or maybe that's just me. :cautious:

I need to recombobulate more. :confused:

It seems like your name and avatar resonates with a lot of us. I can relate to feeling disintegrated, shattered, and broken into a million different pieces. I feel like a clay vessel that was smashed into little shards. I carry those shards around with me in small, dusty boxes. The boxes have labels, which I might choose to show people. "This is part of me." But rarely do I open the boxes in front of anyone, or actually show other people those shards. At least, I try not to let anyone see when my mind decides to open those boxes, especially at work ... Goddamn Pandora's boxes. Just think what would happen if anyone else saw my shards, or saw me trying to fit them back together!

For the last 8-10 months or so, since I started having visceral FBs and nightmares again, "new" memories, and
"old" memories that have taken on new meaning, filling my head ... I think of it like being inside a snow globe. And the globe is filled with puzzle pieces. You shake that shit up and sometimes the pieces fit together and sometimes it's just a swirling mass of disturbing images, sensations, snatches of decades-old shouts and whispered commands .... It's scary and it sucks. But that's where I'm at right now.

I think I like your pixel metaphor. At least with pixels, if you get some distance and perspective, an image starts to form. And just because some of the pixels are blurry, or missing, the image is still pretty sharp (again, with enough distance.) With my swirling snowglobe of missing puzzle pieces and boxes of sharp shards like artifacts in a museum, I'm just a f*cked up hot mess right now.

Yup, I'm deep. :bookworm:

@Lola Nocheprieta what are you holding between your fingers? your pic fascinates me ....

I'm not actually holding anything in my hands irl ... It's all collage & assemblage on top of a photograph. What i appear to be holding is actually an old pill box of my step-grandmother, (thank God I didn't grow up around her.) The box is divided into a top and bottom. On the bottom there is a Frozen Charlotte, a tiny, antique porcelain doll/figurine, that's missing it's lower legs. In the top part are 2 very sharp pieces of broken pottery bound in fabric, and an anatomically accurate tiny plastic heart. In the lid is a piece of old book page with the words "Broken & Whole."

Deep, you said? 20,000 leagues!

I sometimes show my art journal pages to my T, and I actually brought in this finished piece (11x14 wooden substrate + frame.) You can imagine, my T had a field day ...

I'll post some close ups in the Media forum. But enough about me ... What do YOU think of me? ;)

 

[Naoru]

My pic is one I shot of the lunar eclipse from a few years ago, taken from the summit of Pikes Peak. I chose it because it represents how I feel most of the time, but mostly just because I love it. :)

 

[Lola Nocheprieta]

My pic is one I shot of the lunar eclipse ...

Stunning. Impressive photography chops!

 

[LucyDE]

Lovely Forum.

Mine is my dog, she is a rescue and still gets afraid when she hears motorcycles and hides under the table.

I think this is like me, scared of a threat that no longer exists. I usually just lay next to the table till she comes out for a hug.

:)

 

[Sammyiam]

Mine is one of my grandsons favourite books I read to him. Sam I am Green Eggs and Ham . My children used to love reading these books as well. It shows the love I have for him and that I am never going to treat him like my mother treated me or my grandchildren. I also tell him I love him and give him a hug every time I see him. My mother never did either for my whole life. Every time I look at my avatar it makes me smile and think of him and my children and what I am never going to become. I have broken the mould as they say and throwing the pieces away so they can never be glued together again and no one else can get hurt.

 

[Lola Nocheprieta]

I have broken the mould

Good for you, Sammy!

 

[Sandstone]

Both my name and my pic are what I see from my window, sandstone buildings, built with lime mortar. Seemed a good image for me, capturing the layers of contradiction, apparently solid but liable to crumble, yet they have stood for two hundred years.

 

[garden]

Mine is a picture that I took at the aquarium in Atlanta many years ago. It's just so incredibly beautiful, delicate, and wild. I felt a bit upset that these creatures were in captivity. I felt like I could relate to them. I love things that seem to thrive despite their circumstances. Like wildflowers that spring up from cracks in the asphalt, they are defiant, and so alive. My pic reminds me of those things.

 

[AngelKeeperJ]

I have a quirky sense of humor.

What do you do when life gives you lemons? Clearly, turn them into ince...

GREAT IDEA!!!

 

[Gadgie]

My avatar is a picture of a butterfly, it reminds me that we are not in this earth for very long, and how we should all make the best of the time we have, and that we are all fragile in our own way.

 

[Trinket]

Love sea turtles and relate to them. sea turtle rising above the crashing wave of PTSD and conquering. Inspiration.

This is so awesome how you put this, I love sea turtles too! They are actually my fav animal :)
My avatar is a photo of a coral reef that I went snorkeling in. It was the most amazing, peaceful, beautiful experience and I'm grateful to have had it..whenever I'm feeling really anxious and need to meditate, this has become sort of like my "safe place" that I go to.

 

[trying2movefwd]

My first...i think was a woman praying.I guess it resembled "desperate hope"....Now its a kitten....A miracle kitten reminding me that miracles can happen, reminding me that I can't do it on my own...my innerself is much too young. Cats are said to have 9 lives...my "life" is constantly changing...hey, im borderline too.lol....so i tend to see in black and white, but if i look close i can find pink and green... i never realized just how much having a kitten could forshadow my life.lol also i have people moments and alone moments, my mood changes much like a kittens. Haha cool thread!yes. She is my kitten, Bella.