Haha that's reassuring. When I asked my school mates, none of them were really affected by it. A lot of people I met also were not particularly affected although studied the same as me. When we were 15 we went to a museum, and the last part was about the holocaust. When we left and got back in the bus, I was sobbing but nobody else was...always assumed I was just much more sensitive than the other kids.
Of course everyone think back and forward, but I'm not sure if a lot of people reflect about the now. I often stop myself doing whatever I am doing and feel, this is now, right now, the present, and try to see everything around me lucidly. Most of the time I do feel like unless I'm in trouble things are very much cloudy, but maybe this is just the experience you feel when in a routine.
Faeriefire, I think the person I saw was a therapist, we only ever did emdr sessions together, and no particular traumatic event apart from my dad cheating on my mom when I was 4 and leaving us for a couple of weeks was talked about. One if my best friends tried to kill herself by opening her wrists in my bed at boarding school (one arm, not very deep and she bandaged it not long after) was also talked about, which when described like this can be seen as traumatic but are not liked with the obsessive morbid thoughts I had/have about the holocaust.
I do think the trauma comes from the fact that the world I live in has allowed such events to happen, which is very unsettling when you've been brought up thinking somehow there is a sense of justice in the world. The whole holocaust is a terrible mayhem where no justice, no hope and no reason existed for people in the camp, a living hell. That's what my brain has a lot of trouble coping with. Because it means it could happen again.
