Feeling Super Impulsive. Fight It Or Go With It?

[dulcia]

I don't know if this is where this post belongs.

I sometimes feel overwhelming impulsiveness. When I do, it has ended in different ways: getting a tattoo, leaving work early, spontaneous out of town road trip, shopping spree, drinking etc. Sometimes I can talk myself out of it, sometimes I feel I shouldn't have to.

I'm feeling impulsive now. I can feel it in my stomach and my limbs. Racing thoughts right now include: leave work now and go grocery shopping then home, go get drunk, pack up and leave early for an out of town trip, go spend a ton of money somewhere, go get my oil changed. I tried going to the gym this morning (my usual routine) but left after 20 minutes of nothing really and left without showering. Now I'm browsing through these threads instead of doing work.

I feel like the impulsive urge won't go away unless I do something.

Yes? No? Maybe writing it down will help.

 

[Bristol]

I go through the exactly the same thing all the time, today's is to phone in sick for work tomorrow and its giving me a headache!

 

[dulcia]

I go through the exactly the same thing all the time, today's is to phone in sick for work tomorrow...

Man. Are we even in control? Yes. No. Sometimes...

 

[Bristol]

No i dont feel like i am at all, if i was in control id be calm and do daily yoga but im not so i do all sorts of other rubbish and also turn up everywhere late because of it! Glad Im not alone in this tho!

 

[dulcia]

No i dont feel like i am at all, if i was in control id be calm and do daily yoga but im not so i d...

Me too! Rubbish can be fun sometimes. Did you decide about tomorrow yet?

 

[Bristol]

Ill probably have it off, in work now doing nothing lol

 

[dulcia]

Me too! And I even got here early. It doesn't help that I was moved to a new office with practically no one in it. It's like I need someone to occasionally walk by and see my screen to keep me on track :woot:

Do you take any meds to help with you with your feelings? If you don't mind me asking. If you do, please disregard.

 

[Bristol]

My office is dead to, as a teenager it was classed as ADHD but i know thats pretty similar to PTSD no meds for it my mum always thought it was part of my character i think everyone just thinks im mad!

 

[dulcia]

Ha! My teachers in middle school tried to test me for ADHD because I was hyper and I passed/failed or whatever said I didn't have it. My mom has always said it's just part of my behavior too! She always says I'm a 3-year-old trapped in an adult body ;)

 

[Deleted member 541]

I go through this too. Sometimes I give into it, and other times, I take a shower and get back into bed and turn on the TV. To much work then to get dressed and go out. Mostly it depends on how bad of a hit my wallet can handle. Usually it can't handle much, so I stay home!!!,

 

[Friday]

I take certain steps to curb the worst of it // the parts I tend to regret later. My passport is difficult -not impossible- but difficult to acquire. When I have money, that bank account isn't the one I operate out of, nor is the one allocated for bills (and whenever possible I pay 3mo in advance); when I have work I keep a bank of time off accumulated, etc. Otherwise known as I protect the things which I hold dear the rest of the time, so that when I get impulsive as hell, they aren't affected by it.

<grin> And then I'm free to be as impulsive as I like :sneaky:

 

[Stickler]

I feel like I am a cancellation of 1000 conflicting impulses. I want to do so much and then I don't do anything.