Surrounding Myself With People I Can't Remember

[Abstract]

Hmmm... I can see some of the reasons you might want to do this. It sounds like you would benefit from more preparation before doing this if you are going to go ahead though. ?

Triggers and grounding. Two essentials when it comes to managing PTSD. It might be worthwhile asking your t her opinion on these two symptoms and her approach to dealing with them. It will give you an idea of her experience and approach.

Does she list trauma along with a whole shopping list of other specilisations or does she list herself as a trauma therapist? Dis she instigate you getting the diagnoses? What makes her think it will be better than you fear it will be? Is there any indication from them that this will be OK? No pressure to answer.

What about meeting your aunt and leaving other decisions for after that?

 

[Nessa7]

I think I'm feeling more ambivalent about it the longer I think about it. I think that you, @Abstract , and @Muse have been really helpful in getting me to put my fingers to my keyboard so I have more of a record of what I think about this than I would have without you.

She lists trauma along with a lot of other specializations, but she does have a few years of experience working exclusively with trauma patients. She is the one that diagnosed me after seeing me for a few months. I've had my concerns before that the therapy she was providing seemed somewhat limited. At one point in my last session when I started expressing concerns about dissociation, she got out the same CBT worksheet we had done a few weeks before, and I did worry that she might not be able to prepare me for this.

What makes her think it will be better than you fear it will be? Is there any indication from them that this will be OK?

I have been doing a lot of my thinking in bulleted lists lately.

• I didn't destroy the letter, and I didn't have any problems being with it or around it.
• I haven't been feeling any strong emotions about this.
• My T was rather pleased that I read the letter and put it away so that I could continue doing something that I enjoyed.
• I think the letter shows some remorse from my aunt.
• My grandfather is not able to argue with me, and there would be reasons to limit the amount of time that we spend interacting.

I don't agree, but my T thinks that I will regret not seeing my grandfather before he dies.

I haven't even wrote the letter that I'm supposed to be sending to my aunt. I put it aside to deal with stuff in my own life, but I think I might be struggling to actually start writing it.