What Is The Point In All This Anyway

[Bristol]

I was going to stay hidden in my trauma diary but maybe i need to know that there is some hope out there. Dont see the point in all this today. Another hard session with T but im not sure she cares anyway and pretty sure my hubby is about to leave me which to me feels like "he" is winning, "he" is slowly taking away anyone that does care about me to make sure i am completely alone. "He" isnt happy i have been telling people about him. It just feels like whatever i do "he" will win anyway so what am i really fighting for here? Im not really sure what my point is here i think im just trying to get it out, feel free to ignore this

 

[JustBe]

Sounds like Depression is in control. I struggle with Depression too. Just remember that it lies.

I have found that In every day there is at least one brief moment that is worth it. Hang on to that until you can string a few together and build yourself a raft to ride out the storm.

You are worth the struggle.

 

[Friday]

Is the "he" in quotes for emphasis, or because you're triggered & mixing up you husband & past abuser, or... ?

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Sometimes in my life there is no point right now. But, to date, when I wait it out there always becomes a point later. So sometimes the only point is to keep moving forward in time, until I get there.

Other times I just don't remember what the point is. So I have to trust myself that I knew what the point was back when I set things in motion, and keep doing the things I set myself at back when I could see clearly, until I can see clearly, again.

 

[Bristol]

Is the "he" in quotes for emphasis, or because you're triggered & mixing up you husband & past abuser, o...

Really just to seperate past ab*ser away from husband as husband is good guy, i didnt know how else to seperate them really

 

[Bristol]

Sounds like Depression is in control. I struggle with Depression too. Just remember that it lies.

I ha...

Thank you @JustBe

 

[Bristol]

Back here with these feelings again this morning, just re-reading in the hope your messages will get me back to some sort of normal

 

[Suzetig]

You're still here and "he" hasn't won. Because hard as it is you are getting help, and telling people about "him". Sometimes the point is to just hang in there, so that "he" doesn't win, because "he" doesn't get you.

You've been so strong, you can do this.

 

[JustBe]

Back here with these feelings again this morning, just re-reading in the hope your messages will ge...

Keep looking for those tiny slices of joy. A warm cup of tea, a moment when you notice the fear or pain eases up, a soft breeze or getting out for a walk in nature...

It is enough to get through the day and after awhile each tomorrow gets a bit easier and brighter.

Really.

 

[Strongereveryday]

Is the "he" in quotes for emphasis, or because you're triggered & mixing up you husband & past abuser, o...

Thank you for sharing your feelings! I feel for you & I've been there too, feeling like I am losing to that other mean person. Feeling like I am nothing. But just like Tempus fugit said here - just keep going. It will pass and keep taking care of yourSELF - you need to build good experiences of self-care and self-love, to lean on them and to rely on them. Keep investing in your self-worth. Maybe you can remember why you think you are unique, and why you are lovely!?

Hope this helps.

 

[Bristol]

Thank you all for your messages, trying to find little bits of joy and purpose where i can get them and silence the voice that says i will loose, thank you :hug: