Anglesachse
Diamond Member
Hell! Where Airbourne regroup
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Thanks for touching on the hatred issue. I've had trouble articulating it until I heard a quote somewhat recently: "The opposite of love is not hatred. It's apathy."
That's it. I either feel hatred or apathy towards the people I encounter. I have hatred down to an art form. I'm such a morbid, sadistic bitch that I actually enjoy verbally abusing people who care about me and making them feel like shit. They just never understand that's my way of showing that I care too, that I feel something for them in the only way I still know how to feel.
Sounds like something to work on. I don't think you enjoy abusing people Raven. The Beast has a field day with it I know.
Saying "I'm a morbid, sadistic bitch" only reinforces the image of yourself. You are something more and that other nasty part is not you. It is something else that you have not cracked yet.
I used to sit around and think "I'm a damaged piece of shit that should not have contact with humanity". I'm working on that. One way I've found to feel a bit better is to get out and try to socialize a bit more......and be positive about it. Well what do you know, I have some new friends now.Not saying I don't fall down...weekly, daily, sometimes by the hour.
Accepting negative images of yourself is letting the beast win. He loves that shit. Keep fighting!!!!!! Down with the Beast!
Peace.