These Are The Days I Hate

[Jimmy1]

Hey Griz, it's absolutely normal. It's why the majority of us should not work. It's also why people get PTSD confused with Bipolar, it's so similar.

Just find a way to escape when you are like that, don't try and analyse it when you feel like that because you won't be rational.

Good luck and stay safe man.

 

[Friday]

Just on the "why" front, man... Just read you had an anniversary of the f*cked up kind last week. If you're anything like me, it's not the crisis itself that gets dangerous. It's after I feel safe that I fall apart. Hard anniversary, get through it, feel safe, and smack down! would fit my patterns. Took me awhile to link these, since it's what I do in real life (cool in a crisis, disaster later). Don't know why the f*ck the same thing happens in memories. Sneaky creepin bastards.

 

[Spock]

If not "IN" patient than press them on "OUT" patient, or look into some Veterans' retreats. Getting away and decompressing is good to do not just once, but often, especially when you are still fresh into figuring out your triggers and best coping options. My out-patient program was great for working through a bunch of coping mechanisms, mostly eliminating many. It is good you can use this forum, like group therapy, to work through the things you're still too anxious about sharing with your therapist, until you build up more trust.

 

[Grizzly]

If not "IN" patient than press them on "OUT" patient, or look into some Veterans' retreats. Getting away and decompressing is good to do not just once, but often, especially when you are still fresh into figuring out your triggers and best coping options. My out-patient program was great for working through a bunch of coping mechanisms, mostly eliminating many. It is good you can use this forum, like group therapy, to work through the things you're still too anxious about sharing with your therapist, until you build up more trust.

I have often considered some group. I just can't get myself to make that left step. I don't know if it's the crowd thing or the fear of judgement. I deal hard with the judgement thing. More so on all of myself though.

I have been dealing with the negative thoughts about myself and others. I feel like I am making great headway. The wandering thought are still eating me though. That's daily...hourly even.

 

[Deleted member 43454]

I have often considered some group. I just can't get myself to make that left step. I don't know if it's the crowd thing or the fear of judgement. I deal hard with the judgement thing. More so on all of myself though.

I have been dealing with the negative thoughts about myself and others. I feel like I am making great headway. The wandering thought are still eating me though. That's daily...hourly even.

You're on the right path Grizz.
I may not get out all that often to social gatherings but the times I do... It goes well.
Gotta save up that energy each time though that's for damn sure.

 

[OldDoorGunner]

I did the group thing a few times.....did not work out for me.....One on one I can do.....Finding this forum has been the best group for me......

J R

 

[Deleted member 43454]

I did the group thing a few times.....did not work out for me.....One on one I can do.....Finding this forum has been the best group for me......

J R

I'm with you ODG. Totally. This forum is a life saver.

 

[dutchiedelta]

I'm with you ODG. Totally. This forum is a life saver.

And that's the truth.

 

[atilla]

I did the group thing a few times.....did not work out for me.....One on one I can do.....Finding this forum has been the best group for me......

J R

Same here guys, this forum helped me to move forward. I was stuck in a rut, you guys and gals pulled me out of it.

 

[Grizzly]

Well...sadly I'm round 2 with the beast today. Enraged and depressed. Woke up, felt great. Laughed with the kids before they went to school. Wham! Where's my flamethrower?

Dammit how these days can just slam you into the ground. I ask myself...why, why, why? I know why. But why me?

Yesterday I had the world by the nuts. And was twisting them. Today the role is reversed.

I look around. I see people who are so stupid I wonder if they can even tie their own shoes. Yet nature allows them to exist. Wandering without a clue. How does this happen? Darwin was so wrong in his idea on natural selection.

Surely the day can only get better.

 

[Friday]

 

[Friday]

Feel ya, Grizzly. Burning last week, and now? I'm on the other end of the spectrum since about midnight last night. Been just about everything I can do to keep myself from ___insert unwise self destructive (but fun! Dammit!) behaviors here____.

Self control f*cking sucks.