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When your daughter is in the same room shouting your name over and over and you don't hear her
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When during one single therapists appt. you start to dissociate several separate times...and don't give this much thought...any weight....consideration. Seems "normal".
heythere2017
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When you panic about bad things happening, instantly trembling and shaking and so scared, even though nothing bad is happening, but that doesn't matter, all day every day
When nothing bad is happening, but you feel awful, panicked and powerless. You tell yourself it's over, but it doesn't feel over, because certain people are still in your life, even if you only see them a handful of days a year, and they have no control over you anymore, even when those people themselves seem changed over time. But it doesn't matter, the panic has a solid hold over you. And makes you feel afraid to be authentic, and stand up for yourself, to be sure of yourself.
You're so afraid of people getting angry.
You're so afraid of being abandoned.
You ruminate over the past and circumstances of your life. You think things will never change. Friends are undependable, one step away from abandoning you for being too depressing and troubled. There's no safe family to return to. Even if there is, the thought of (well, for me) my father troubles me emotionally and physically too much, even though he's not around.
When nothing bad is happening, but you feel awful, panicked and powerless. You tell yourself it's over, but it doesn't feel over, because certain people are still in your life, even if you only see them a handful of days a year, and they have no control over you anymore, even when those people themselves seem changed over time. But it doesn't matter, the panic has a solid hold over you. And makes you feel afraid to be authentic, and stand up for yourself, to be sure of yourself.
You're so afraid of people getting angry.
You're so afraid of being abandoned.
You ruminate over the past and circumstances of your life. You think things will never change. Friends are undependable, one step away from abandoning you for being too depressing and troubled. There's no safe family to return to. Even if there is, the thought of (well, for me) my father troubles me emotionally and physically too much, even though he's not around.
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Up to this point in time, I've lived my near entire existence in fear of others' anger...and of being abandoned...self-fulfilling unless I change my way of thinking.
So much freaking easier said...than done. Working on this...and will be probably for eternity. Feels this way. Geez..."feelings" at times...I hate my f*cking feelings! (@%%##@#%#@!&^^$!)
So...you know you have ptsd when it seems "natural" to live in fear of others and also in fear of abandonment.
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When your question to the muggles.. er, non-PTSD people, would be 'How does one proper vacations?'.
When you tell helpful people to not f*cking go slow & kind on you, because you'd either not get it, or it will terrify you.
When the more someone means to you, the less mentions they get. That? That's a buddy I mail, like, on Christmas. (... on Christmas I'm robinsoning and all them other f*cking days when all the ships I need floating sink.)
When you tell helpful people to not f*cking go slow & kind on you, because you'd either not get it, or it will terrify you.
When the more someone means to you, the less mentions they get. That? That's a buddy I mail, like, on Christmas. (... on Christmas I'm robinsoning and all them other f*cking days when all the ships I need floating sink.)
Chiqui
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When a non choosen meeting is cancelled. Meeting for lunch and «having fun» sort off thing :rolleyes:
Chiqui
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@heythere2017
You're so afraid of people getting angry.
You're so afraid of being abandoned.
This is absolutely me :eek::cautious: What I do? Avoid people as much as I can.
(I also abandon people when I get angry :()
You're so afraid of people getting angry.
You're so afraid of being abandoned.
This is absolutely me :eek::cautious: What I do? Avoid people as much as I can.
(I also abandon people when I get angry :()
shatter eyes
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...when someone bumps into you accidentally and you want to turn around grab them into a headlock and drag them until they apologize.
...when u wake up screaming and shouting
.. heart rate climbs to 140 range in seconds
..when tactical equipment brings smile and sense of safety...only to give them away to safe storage person because u dont want to hurt yourself or anyone else.
...when you are dying to live deep inside and want people to see that though you are alive you are in a cycle of death, destruction, despair, and delicacy.
..when teddy bears talk to you.
...when u wake up screaming and shouting
.. heart rate climbs to 140 range in seconds
..when tactical equipment brings smile and sense of safety...only to give them away to safe storage person because u dont want to hurt yourself or anyone else.
...when you are dying to live deep inside and want people to see that though you are alive you are in a cycle of death, destruction, despair, and delicacy.
..when teddy bears talk to you.
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When other people are speaking in hyperbole... And you're not. :cautious:
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