Idolising my therapist

[BM2A]

I'm on the middle of 16 sessions of therapy, which has been really hard, but I know is helping. My problem is my therapist who is a consultant clinical psychologist, is to me super cool, amazing, so good at her job, and I have some sort of crush thing going on.

Years ago I was pursuing a career in clinical psychology, and I completed my first degree. Now I'm not in any position financially, or mentally to pursue that. Not to mention how ridiculously competitive it is in the UK.

In my eyes I think I'm starting to idolise her.
I'm under a mental health team, the nurse who see s me sometimes, we chat, I'm not attached, I feel on a level with her. But with the psychologist its so different.

 

[Emotional girl]

I'm on the middle of 16 sessions of therapy, which has been really hard, but I know is helping. My problem...

It sounds like you have some kind of transference feelings going on .I have to say you are not alone when it comes to feeling like this ,I feel the same about my psychologist as well.
Have you talked to your psychologist about the way you are feeling?


I just wanted to you to know that you are not alone when it comes to idolising your psychologist,I have the same "problem" as well.To me he is this perfect man who I am starting to feel safe with and who I really like (probably too much if I am honest).
Obviously I don't know your full back ground but you could be suffering from some transference issues towards her.It is quite common in therapy to have feelings for your psychologist (as I keep reading on the internet)and maybe it is something that you could talk to her about as you seem to trust her.
Well done on getting your degree by the way as that is something you should be proud of.

 

[BM2A]

Thank you, I'm glad I'm not alone in idolising my psychologist! And thankyou I should be proud getting my degree - that seems like another life time these days.
I could tell her how I'm feeling. But because its going well and the therapy is helping i don't want to ruin it, make her feel different. I think I do probably like her too much. Could be transference as well

 

[Emotional girl]

I think you should do whatever you feel comfortable with and if you don't want to tell her that is fine.I think the fact that you have acknowledged that you have feelings is a big step anyway.
I told mine because it was eating me up inside and it was a risk that I had to take,he was fine about it and our therapeutic relationship hasn't changed but you have to do whatever you feel is best for you.
Maybe you could write your feelings down and if you change your mind in the future then you could show her.
Wishing you good luck with the rest of your therapy and I am glad you are making progress.