Losing it....

[Deleted member 44579]

Well what can say today at the shop... Which was really really busy for a sunday I freaked out.
There was a group of men... Way to close to me... So I told them to stop invading my personal space...

Of course they laughed.. As most were drunk. So I just went mental.. Assholes.. Dickheads.. Half inch.... Wanker... Of course this got a reaction.. And one guy became aggressive... And I didn't back down . I told this guy if he wants to hit me I will knock him down

At this point.. My friend dragged me away... And also called them assholes.

Has anyone else done this...?.. I'm much calmer... A little embarrassed... But I know why it happened and why I reacted they way I did. It's nearly Halloween.. My anniversary...

 

[MrMoonlight]

I'm with you for sure. Sorry you had to go through such a distressing interaction...Many times my internal eruption will actually express itself physically (yelling, gesturing, anger!). I never hurt anyone but something clicks and all bets are off because I'm not really in control anymore. I mean my ability to think diminishes.

I need to learn more about this stuff as my journey is just beginning. Thanks for starting the thread..I will follow.

Stay strong.

 

[FragileGlass]

You don't have to justify or rationalize your reaction! It was justified by the insensitivity and lack of compassion from the half inch wankers! They deserved what they got for the lack of respect they showed you. You just need to afford yourself patience here because many of us would have acted in frustration to drunken idiots.

I'm glad you're feeling calmer and a little better! :)

 

[LuckiLee]

We just had this problem yesterday at the Halloween store. It was becoming more crowded, people invading J's space and bumping into him. He said "I'm getting in PTSD mode, we gotta go, NOW".

You'll get better at recognizing your feelings and be able to react differently. But like you said you're coming up on an anniversary date so your symptoms will spike.

Go easy on yourself. You did nothing to feel embarrassed about!

XO

 

[LuckiLee]

And sometimes people are a**holes and need to be told they're a**holes. ;)

 

[Deleted member 541]

Maybe instead of “telling them” you might have asked if the could move back a bit and not crowd you so much. I think it’s all about the way WE handle things to get a better reaction from others. Yes, we all do lose it at times though, and I’m not downplaying what you went through. Just maybe a different approach would have gotten a better reaction is all...

 

[Deleted member 44579]

Thanks you guys for all you support.... And for understanding.... I hate this time of year and have been doing pretty well for me.... Mind you still got a couple of days till the day.....

No one should mess with me on that day.... As I've told many people I don't think I would stop if u felt threatened...

Anger huh....

 

[Freida]

Yep. That's when service dog comes in handy. One of his things is to stand sideways in front of me to keep people out of my space. It's amazing how much it helps

 

[Deleted member 44579]

Yep. That's when service dog comes in handy. One of his things is to stand sideways in front of me to...

Wow I wish I had a service dog... It's different here in the UK... But not impossible. I don't think I will go out tomorrow...just in case....

 

[Freida]

Are you sure? I did some travelling in Europe a while back and did some checking on if I could bring him. I thought for sure England was the only place that recognizes service dogs

 

[Deleted member 44579]

Are you sure? I did some travelling in Europe a while back and did some checking on if I could bring hi...

I know they are recognised here and respected... I'm just not sure about how to get a service dog if you're not a former armed forces member.... Maybe someone on here knows...?

 

[Lucycdf]

We just had this problem yesterday at the Halloween store. It was becoming more crowded, people invadin...

So when you say you’re going into PTSD, does that mean shutting down and basically crumbling? Because that is what happens to me now, and I’m not sure how, but it started a couple of months ago