Virtual online gathering for christmas day here....

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Do want to make the thread for that this time, it is after all your idea. Hey we come up with some pretty...

We make a pretty good team! Yeah New Years *sigh* reeeeaally bad holiday

 

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We can make voo doo dolls of the old year and stick pins in them. I am really sorry to hear how much they tried to destroy your life Rosie. You are very couragous to go forwards anyway.:hug::hug::hug:

 

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We can make voo doo dolls of the old year and stick pins in them. I am really sorry to hear how much they...

Aw thanks Rain :hug: they can try to bring me down but they can’t keep me there, they can’t keep me down at all, just got to keep going :)

 

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they can’t keep me down at all, just got to keep going :)

I never knew while I was growing up that I would meet such wonderful people online later on who had so much to do with my healing and recovery process. It would have given me such hope as a little girl to know about such loving supportive people would be my friends later on.

 

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I never knew while I was growing up that I would meet such wonderful people online later on who had so muc...

:hug: same Rain, we made it through all of it and now we have good friends to help us heal :) something I never thought I’d have as a kid, I never really expected to be out of the situation at all as a kid really, when I think of it I think of just hopeless persevering, not really expecting to get out but clinging to hope of something I didn’t know and just living for the sake of living. But we survived :)

 

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I never really expected to be out of the situation at all as a kid really, when I think of it I think of just hopeless persevering, not really expecting to get out but clinging to hope of something I didn’t know and just living for the sake of living. But we survived :)

It is the same for me too. I never thought it would ever end and that I could feel feelings besides terror, fear and guilt and shame.

Maybe that is why in our dark times we feel it would never end and we are just having emotional flashbacks of our childhood despair and the need to be rescued.

 

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It is the same for me too. I never thought it would ever end and that I could feel feelings besides terror...

That makes sense, perfect sense. I remember so clearly my dreams of being rescued I had it all worked out in my mind, I can still remember. I dreamed a cop would come and find me in the shed he was keeping me in and take me out and to safety and I’d be safe with him. Weird how we can remember that kind of thing.

 

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I know I had a plan in the fifth grade to run away from home and live in a park restroom and shoplift my food. That is so sad, My little is giving your little a hug now.:hug:

 

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I know I had a plan in the fifth grade to run away from home and live in a park restroom and shoplift my f...

Aw same, and I had similar thoughts :( I jumped out of a window once trying to run away after mom shook me so hard I couldn’t breath. My little self would’ve loved being with yours, lots of hugs

 

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I jumped out of a window once trying to run away after mom shook me so hard I couldn’t breath.

Do you ever wonder how you lived through that and other experiences? It is a miracle that I am still alive and tell your little that my little feels very loved right now.thank you so much:hug::hug:

 

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Do you ever wonder how you lived through that and other experiences? It is a miracle that I am still alive...

Yes I ask myself that so many times, used to wonder everyday why in the world I survived- especially the more I realize how many close calls there were. Feels like a miracle sometimes

 

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I think it is a huge miracle. It was living hell back then and it is hard sometimes but then knowing people like you is such a treasure and a gift to me that sometimes like now for instance I am beginning to reaiize that there is a purpose for me to still be alive. Getting to know is such a joy to me that I cannot believe just how blessed I am at times. I just wish I could hang onto these kinds of thoughts you know? Thank you so much for being with me tonight,:hug::hug::hug: