Can you write a little more about this? Is it trouble falling asleep, staying asleep, or...?
And h...
I take it in the morning, every morning. Usually around 9 or 10 am... I take 10 mg. I don't have trouble falling or getting to sleep, it's that usually I wake up early in the morning. At 5 or 6, thinking about certain things and am not able to get back to sleep because of mental disturbance. I find is may more to do with depression or psychological issue than meds. I am thinking cognitively there's stuff to work on, I'm currently working on cognitive distortions - that is; keeping a log of them in a notebook and looking at them and trying to change and look at some more problematic ones that I have. I've noticed that I have depression. I'm tired of beating around bush and making excuses. I definitely have negative cognitive distortions and are causing a depression.
I am working on my overall dexterity, instead of mental emotional rigidity, Resilience with a capital R, and cognitive distortions...
I've realized I have a lot of them, and I'm finally able to look at them and work with them, instead of stubbornly holding on; that I have a depression. That I've had one quite a long time, and that it mostly came from not being able to cope with life after a rough time, or some trauma or something that I had a difficulty handling.
There are a set of mental skills that build resilience, that I'm working on. It's totally opposite of depression, and what I'm used to doing, knee jerk security....black and white/ rigidity, all for protection. It's funny because all this time I thought I was working on skills that are valuable or valued, when they are easy, but they are not flexible, adaptable, necessary or highly valued....nor do they require hard work or finesse. They were simply effective for what I needed them for, short and dirty; keeping me safe, making life black and white and providing security.
Please, don't mix this up with security reactions from trauma, like I did.
