Home as a trigger

[Gs172003]

Being at home during well..most of the time for me is very hard. Most of what I dealt with was at home so for me being home is not good. My therapist wants me to try to figure out ways to make it feel safe and other than my dogs I have no idea what or how. It's causing alot of problems because I avoid being here as much as possible because it bothers me so much especially certain times of day. I know I'm very unique in this so.. now what?

 

[Tornadic Thoughts]

Is it cosmetic things, like paint colors or decorating....is it how things are arranged...are there items that are clearly attached to traumatic memories...is it simply too many things sucking up all of your energy not allowing you to fully enjoy the space...is it the same home where traumatic events occurred...is it set up to actually feel like a warm, welcoming, and functional home to you, or do you work harder at ensuring it's more comfortable for those you share it with.....do you have at least one sacred space within your own home that's all yours and is respected as such by others? Don't know how truly helpful those questions may be, but those are the first things that come to mind, and some of the things I recall from trying to feel at home in my own home.

 

[Abstract]

Could there be any sense of fear about emotional intimacy. I get that to an extent. Can't find the words at present.

 

[Gs172003]

Is it cosmetic things, like paint colors or decorating....is it how things are arranged...are...

It's cluttered thanks to my husband..So was the other one.
Not a whole lot of natural light, just like before.
Very "brown toned" and plain. Like other one.
Certain lighting and times of day does it too but not entirely sure why

Could there be any sense of fear about emotional intimacy. I get that to an extent. Can't find the word...

No that's not it. Physical stuff yes. Emotional no.

 

[littleoc]

Being at home during well..most of the time for me is very hard. Most of what I dealt with was at home s...

I'm living in the same house from my childhood, which is across the street from the house where I was kidnapped into. I understand.

What I'm doing currently is cleaning it out. Then I'm adding decorations and paints to make it different :) Maybe personalized is a better word. I also am planning to add a lock to my door and security things like that.

 

[Gs172003]

I'm living in the same house from my childhood, which is across the street from the house where I was...

I live across the street from my mom. I never see her though lol

 

[littleoc]

It's cluttered thanks to my husband..So was the other one.
Not a whole lot of natural light, just like...

Have you tried "natural sunlight" lamps? They can really help. Get one that filters out UV. Here's a cheaper one (they can get very expensive):

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That one is on sale currently. It can add some natural light and then also help you with other things.

 

[Gs172003]

Have you tried "natural sunlight" lamps? They can really help. Get one that filters out UV. Here's a c...

No I haven't I just tend to escape outside lol

It also doesn't help that I found out my ex lives not too far from me.

No that's not it. Physical stuff yes. Emotional no.

I don't worry about the emotional stuff I'm selective about who gets it.

 

[littleoc]

Well first things first -- security. Maybe get a fake security system sign? Befriend one neighbor or two with cookies?

 

[Gs172003]

Well first things first -- security. Maybe get a fake security system sign? Befriend one neighbor or t...

I use my dogs for that these days except I can't get them to stay in during the day

 

[Gs172003]

Well first things first -- security. Maybe get a fake security system sign? Befriend one neighbor or t...

I could try the sign thing. Where do you get them

 

[littleoc]

Here's a couple!

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If those sell out, I found them by Googling, "security sign" :)