Recovery

[whiteraven]

I'm trying to figure something out.

What, exactly, are we recovering "to"? I mean, what after, or is there an after?

 

[MrMoonlight]

I don't know but I can't manage things as they are...I need help. Why I'm fighting so hard is a mystery to me, maybe just human survival instinct? I just want a little peace.

It's hard for me to see a future for myself which probably contributes to the question of "what after" for me. I think it's a common thing in ptsd sufferers.

How are you doing tonight @whiteraven ? I hope you are well.

edit: maybe there is no after. we just learn to manage our symptoms?

 

[whiteraven]

How are you doing tonight @whiteraven ? I hope you are well.

Thank you for asking. Nobody asks anymore. Truthfully, I'd be happy to die. I'm really struggling.

 

[MrMoonlight]

we deserve better @whiteraven . we haven't fought this long and hard to throw in the towel now. I'm so sorry you are feeling like this tonight. Are you able to use distraction to get out of the funk? I'm watching a movie right now to escape the world if you know what I mean.

 

[EveHarrington]

A better place?

Better than this?

There’s got to be something better than this!

 

[Finchlet2]

Freedom

 

[Freida]

recovery to me means leaving the symptom behind --- the hyper vigilance, nightmares, intrusive thoughts and cognitive distortions, all of it. Being able to live my life without always having to take my symptoms into consideration.

I think we can all get there--- even you! It sounds like you are having a tough time tonight -- I'm so sorry. But don't give up hope...There's a light at the end of the tunnel even if you can't quite see it yet

 

[Deleted member 44579]

Hi @whiteraven...... That's an excellent question.. I guess it's whatever that means for you.
Happiness... Self love..... Smiling at sunset.. Not being Scared.... Jumpy.... Angry...

Maybe it's the small things like a cuddle from your pet..... A drive to the countryside to walk in the rain.....

I don't know.... Laughter is good too.... Take care

 

[whiteraven]

A better place?

Better than this?

There’s got to be something better than this!

Is there such a thing?

recovery to me means leaving the symptom behind --- the hyper vigilance, nightmares, intrusive thoughts...

Than you for your words, @Freida. I can't get beyond the constant and repeated trauma of *today* much less that of yesterday.

Freedom

Except there is no such thing as "freedom." Not in my observation.

we deserve better @whiteraven . we haven't fought this long and hard to throw in...

Thank you @MrMoonlight - I'm struggling with some very real work issues right now. Exposure to chemicals (which is adding to my pain) that they refuse to correct. It does help - some - to come home and not be there anymore. But the after-effects continue until I go to bed and often prevent me from sleeping.

How can we deal with past stuff if present stuff keeps intruding and retraumatizing?

 

[CdnCopper]

Some days are better than other days, some are worse.

I'm fighting to stick around for the "better" days because I know they'll eventually come. When I have one it refreshes me and gives me the hope & strength I need to stick around and fight for the next one.

Hang in there.