Loss of flow of time

[Gorkysz13]

due to the extremely repressive/oppressive nature of my trauma the only way I thought I could escape was my living in my mind, and because i felt so helpless to change any of the circumstances of my life (partially because i was so disconnected from my body) i can only change my circumstances through like adding or deleting things from reality with my mind.

I now have the ability to literally stop the flow of time. I did this a few times in the past, but about a week(?) ago time and space just stopped moving in any direction not on purpose. now life doesn't feel dynamic or flowing. i can only cognate time through logic. it's made it really hard to speak through emotions or convey what i want to convey. has anyone else experienced this, loss of flow of time? I am trying to feel less alone. It's very scary. I feel like nothing.

my voice is so far away from me that i can't even scream.

 

[ILoveLife]

I only experienced that heavily high on drugs.

Honestly, I think you should seek professional help. It's your brain's perspective not working properly, not reality itself.

 

[littleoc]

Hello!

No you aren't alone. Although it does remind me a little of psychosis -- have you been under a lot of stress?

Best wishes

 

[Gorkysz13]

I am talking to a therapist. And I'm fine. These are just psychosomatic symptoms, and since yesterday its started to go away.

 

[littleoc]

I am talking to a therapist. And I'm fine. These are just psychosomatic symptoms, and since yesterday...

Glad to hear it's getting better!

I've heard of similar things around the forums -- I know it happens occasionally. As long as you get better, I wouldn't worry :)

 

[Deleted member 42984]

Some time ago I would experience loss of time, I simpy couldn't sense naturally what time of day it was. Like in the middle of night I would feel like it was daytime or rather, I couldn't tell the difference. I also experienced some depersonalization where I forgot all my skills, for instance, I was assured that I was a complete noob on the guitar and couldn't play a thing, which of course was not true. It was dissociation going on, but it took me a while to realize that, it was not before I joined another forum (not this one) I realized what the hell was happening to. I don't dissociate as much as I used to any longer, which I attribute to both therapy and consistent talk about my feelings with my NA sponsor. Things really do get better over time and with consistent effort :-)

 

[Gorkysz13]

Was the other forum you joined about depersonalization? I only just realised I have depersonalization, I was so focused on the emotional aspects of dissociation and ptsd that I ddn't realise what was going on and why I was attributing my actions to another person and lost my personality but still had memories! It's like I have a frontal lobe lobotomy! I still can only cognate time and not experience it but now that I realised I have dp (two days ago) I have more self control, and I have faith that I will get better.

 

[Deleted member 42984]

No, it was a forum for survivors of childhood abuse. I didn't know back then what dissociation/depersonalization really was, but I learned it there. Also, my T thinks the same, that I show symptoms of dissociation, derealization and depersonalization. Not as much as used to, but still.