Rose White
MyPTSD Pro
Animals protected me from my abuser, in a way. In my extreme broken state I believed I was telepathic. When I finally gained self-awareness I rejected telepathy and animal communication. But talking to animals has returned—I think it’s a coping mechanism? When I feel like I am successfully communicating with my pets or wild animals there is a sense of deep satisfaction. But I tell my kids that it’s just me making up stories, like a form of play—I don’t want them to think that I am magic, that’s dishonest, I’m not trying to prove anything, it’s fun for me. Sometimes I believe it and sometimes I don’t.
It’s very emotionally driven but words are understood. I wonder if any other trauma-survivors, especially pre-verbal trauma, have a verbal relationship with animals? Do you struggle with accepting it? I knew plenty of people who claimed to be animal communicators in my broken state, people who were as unconscious of their wounds as I was, but in my aware state, talking to animals is suspect, rife with projection. Part of me is ashamed to talk to animals.
It’s very emotionally driven but words are understood. I wonder if any other trauma-survivors, especially pre-verbal trauma, have a verbal relationship with animals? Do you struggle with accepting it? I knew plenty of people who claimed to be animal communicators in my broken state, people who were as unconscious of their wounds as I was, but in my aware state, talking to animals is suspect, rife with projection. Part of me is ashamed to talk to animals.