Hello all,
It has been a while since I posted anything on this forum. I realize now it was almost a year ago I posted about a similar issue. My sexual attraction to my therapist has not gone away :/.
It seems to come in bursts and sputters and I seemed to be doing much better for a time.
It is becoming so overwhelming though and exhausting. I think about him often. I want to kiss him and love on him and hug him. It is interesting though...I do not want a romantic relationship with him. I do not have some fantasy of leaving my husband and being with him. I love my husband and enjoy being with my husband I don't want to spend my life with anyone else...I just want to make out with my therapist!
This feels so bizarre. I have male friends I enjoy and appreciate and share my life with but I have never had sexual feelings toward any of them. I don't miss them when they are away. I don't enjoy them as much as I enjoy my therapist either.
I have tried on-line therapy to help me move past these feelings. I have sort of kind of mentioned them to my therapist. Nothing seems to really make them go away. Of course it makes me sad that I won't ever get to kiss him and hug him the way I want to. I'm afraid he will refer me to someone else if I bring it up again. I have tried for over a year to make these feelings go away.
I adore him.
Sadly, it has become so complicated I am beside myself and experiencing all sorts of feelings of rejection and sorrow, abandonment and unworthiness.
It all seems so ridiculous.
I find myself getting angry at him for little things. I am less and less appreciative of him. I am resentful. It is so incredibly painful.
I have asked him on several occasions to help me find a new therapist...he won't help me.
There are so many out there to choose from.
I am overwhelmed to think about starting over with someone else.
Every week for over a year I have seen him and these feelings will not go away!!!
Any thoughts are appreciated.
It has been a while since I posted anything on this forum. I realize now it was almost a year ago I posted about a similar issue. My sexual attraction to my therapist has not gone away :/.
It seems to come in bursts and sputters and I seemed to be doing much better for a time.
It is becoming so overwhelming though and exhausting. I think about him often. I want to kiss him and love on him and hug him. It is interesting though...I do not want a romantic relationship with him. I do not have some fantasy of leaving my husband and being with him. I love my husband and enjoy being with my husband I don't want to spend my life with anyone else...I just want to make out with my therapist!
This feels so bizarre. I have male friends I enjoy and appreciate and share my life with but I have never had sexual feelings toward any of them. I don't miss them when they are away. I don't enjoy them as much as I enjoy my therapist either.
I have tried on-line therapy to help me move past these feelings. I have sort of kind of mentioned them to my therapist. Nothing seems to really make them go away. Of course it makes me sad that I won't ever get to kiss him and hug him the way I want to. I'm afraid he will refer me to someone else if I bring it up again. I have tried for over a year to make these feelings go away.
I adore him.
Sadly, it has become so complicated I am beside myself and experiencing all sorts of feelings of rejection and sorrow, abandonment and unworthiness.
It all seems so ridiculous.
I find myself getting angry at him for little things. I am less and less appreciative of him. I am resentful. It is so incredibly painful.
I have asked him on several occasions to help me find a new therapist...he won't help me.
There are so many out there to choose from.
I am overwhelmed to think about starting over with someone else.
Every week for over a year I have seen him and these feelings will not go away!!!
Any thoughts are appreciated.