What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[bhm]

You are probably right @bhm .I do like helping people and like sharing experiences in order to help them,I think my mood is more the problem at the moment than other people saying thank you and appreciation.
I think I am generally pissed off with life altogether and I tend to write and think negative thoughts when I am like that.
Thank you for your replay and no I don't think that you are a dick x

thanks for that, I was kinda worried about my response, lately because of where I am in my recovery my moods can be unstable at best and I've found I've had to start exercizing high boundaries and foucusing on me and not giving so much of myself to other people, not that i'm turning my back on them but working the two miniute rule, if I run across someone distressed I can point them in the direction of someone or somewhere they can attain help with what they need but as hard as it is sometimes won't take it any further than that, hope you're feeling better :)

 

[Emotional girl]

I think your two minute rule sounds a good idea @bhm .You sound like a lovely person and I wish you all the best x

 

[bhm]

I think your two minute rule sounds a good idea @bhm .You sound like a lovely person and I wish you all the best x

? aww shuks thank you

 

[Friday]

That close to offing myself, can't stand hearing one more time what an...

There are other ways to never have to listen to someone ever again.

 

[bhm]

There are other ways to never have to listen to someone ever again.

I hope you mean healthy ways! Try and breath, what you described sounds somewhat abusive, if someone can't expess themselves in a reasonable manor that's not your fault and shouldn't have to tolerate beratement, stay strong buds ? try and go somewhere natural and relaxing for a while to clear your mind, it helps me alot when I have dark ideas

 

[bhm]

I hope you mean healthy ways! Try and breath, what you described sounds somewhat abusive, if someone can't expess themselves in a reasonable manor that's not your fault and shouldn't have to tolerate beratement, stay strong buds ? try and go somewhere natural and relaxing for a while to clear your mind, it helps me alot when I have dark ideas

Sorry @Fiday: I instantly jumped into the dark end of the pool on that one,

 

[Ronin]

raged at the top of her lungs.

Oh, the nasty will scream her lungs off... meaning she will be hopefully quiet now, for a few, and having trouble speaking, later. :sneaky:

No offing yourself for someone full of venom. :hug:
And: My shitlist just got longer of your relative. Good good, I almost forgot about that list.

 

[Friday]

Sorry @Fiday: I instantly jumped into the dark end of the pool on that one,

I was responding to Junebug

 

[frogthroat]

I feel oddly calm and like I have the ability to start tackling other issues...and I'm sleepy now.

 

[Tinyflame]

Thank you @bhm , @Friday , @Ronin , it was a stupid thing to say, even if the truth. I wish I could escape it and yes Friday I understand the rule of not listening specifically to the words. Harder to do for me when you can't escape the presence, or least of all control. But were there a way, financially or without forfeiting financial commitment, I would have many years ago. I know she is worried to death (as am I- but there's never any acceptance for that). But she says the same, regardless. There is never an apology.

Anyway, thanks to all and I'm sorry.

 

[Friday]

Don’t be sorry that we care :happy:

But she says the same, regardless. There is never an apology.

Although it sounds like you are well and overdue for an apology, so here’s a bit of a vicarious one:

I am profoundly sorry that you have to deal with that, and greatly admiring of your strength and character in doing so. Well done in finding ways forward, even during the hardest times.

 

[Tinyflame]

Thank you @Friday , that is a most generous and beautiful thing to say. <Sigh>

Well, it sure doesn't feel like a way forward. I was thinking, there used to be some famous book, can't remember which one, that said something like, ~'.. and they all leave in the end'. And I was thinking, I know every time things like this occur, it fuels a negative core belief that everyone (living) eventually lies, cheats, steals, betrays, abuses, has their end game at others' expense. That the capacity for what people call 'love' is finite, but the capacity to inflict harm and the rationalization to do so in the name of self-justification, is infinite. I don't want to think that way though, and feel pretty disingenuous to file these things under that, and then 'carry on' as though I do not feel that way, not not-forgiving but further 'proof' that it is pretty fruitless,relationships or caring or trust. But, you know, life carries on- dog is still very sick, have to go to work and deal with people all day, etc. Have to deal with what is, and try not to react to it (quitting job, SI, etc). Which of course is my own problem/ regulation, but existentially I feel pretty spent I suppose in terms of feelings of trust, or worth, or value, or safety, I suppose.

Anyway, sorry for the rant, and thank you very much, expected to be blamed. :hug: