Worse than I thought

[HellFire_84]

I have been receiving the proper therapeutic care. I recently found out that I AM NOT bipolar as the doctors in CA originally diagnosed me with. I was on the complete WRONG meds even for a person WITH bipolar!!! I was on Depakote (mood swings), Paxil (depression, anxiety and panic attacks). This last May I sought the care of a certified Psychologist. In doing some questionnaires and assessments she said that I have SEVERE P.T.S.D. (NOT BIPOLAR!!!) It was much, much worse than I had originally thought or was lead to believe. Since being her care, the psychologist did a full med change. I am now on Zoloft and Buspar.

A couple of months ago, during my med change (coming off of Paxil...ICK), I acted out on my P.T.S.D. My boyfriend said that I "wasn't there" and my "eyes went black". Frickin scary!!! I acted out and assaulted my B.F. by pushing him in his solarplex HARD enough to cause an asthma attack! We wrestled on the floor trying to do each other in it seemed.

I called 911 for help for my BF thinking that is what he asked for. HE DIDN'T!!! Cops came and I WENT TO JAIL!!! I admitted that I put hands on him first. I screwed my self by being too honest. Although it was overnight, I received a greater perspective. A wake up call. Now I have to deal with court on top of everything else.

I needed to get this out and let someone else know what is going on with me and do so in a completely supportive atmosphere.

 

[Teamwork]

Ah sorry that happened. Be this honest with your lawyer too.

 

[Changing4Best]

Someone I know ended up in jail because of some similar situation with a BF. So sorry this happened to you! This person was also going through a medicine change when that happened to them. Be easy on yourself, be totally honest with your lawyer, as said before. Be very courteous with the Judge, saying "yes, your honor, no your honor," and say as little as you can, don't go into details or long explanations, if you can help it, unless you are asked to do so. Let your lawyer do most of the talking. Good luck!

 

[EveHarrington]

A Paxil/Depakote aka antidepressant/mood stabilizer combination is 1000% normal for someone who is bipolar and not uncommon for someone with PTSD. I don’t want you to think you were on the “wrong” meds for your disorder.

Unfortunately finding the right meds is a crapshoot even for the best of psychiatrists. You had an unfortunate reaction.....I have had them too, and for this reason refuse certain meds no matter how much my doc thinks I need them.

 

[HellFire_84]

A Paxil/Depakote aka antidepressant/mood stabilizer combination is 1000% normal for someone who is bipolar and not uncommon for someone with PTSD. I don’t want you to think you were on the “wrong” meds for your disorder.

Unfortunately finding the right meds is a crapshoot even for the best of psychiatrists. You had an unfortunate reaction.....I have had them too, and for this reason refuse certain meds no matter how much my doc thinks I need them.

I saw a Psychiatrist and she did assessments to find out a TRUE diagnosis. The kicker is, these meds NOW r working the best.

 

[Friday]

I saw a Psychiatrist and she did assessments to find out a TRUE diagnosis. The kicker is, these meds NOW r working the best.

The thing is... if it’s a purely chemical / structural problem, like bipolar disorder? The long and short of it is that Meds fix it. Therapy can be useful, especially whilst finding the right cocktail as that tends to take about a year of changing Rx’s and tweaking doses to find what’s best suited to you individually, but it’s the medication that’s necessary.

PTSD, on the other hand, can be helped by meds, but it’s therapy/life changes that treat it & are necessary.

That’s -foundationally- why correct diagnosis is so damn important. The treatments are different. The same exact symptoms often have radically different causes AND best ways of dealing with them.