What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Tinyflame]

Sick every time this person (who doesn't care less), says hello by saying, "Are you ok?", wtf am I supposed to say to that? :confused: ?☹ I say, "yes, are YOU ok?" I should say 'F-A-N-T-A-S-T-I-C!' :(
Sweet that over-heard person say, "she stole my heart". Because they started out gruff.
Absolutely can't face situation that likely starts tomorrow and will be ongoing. :(:cry:
Alone; used. No hope left whatsoever.
Resigned.

 

[blackemerald1]

Had a fabulous sleep which makes everything feel good to start with. But my dental clean wiped the smile off my face - particularly when I coughed up the money for it. :sorry:

 

[Tinyflame]

Thinking in the back of my mind maybe if I stay up all night tomorrow will not come? lol. Or at least not the nightmares. :( I wish I were kidding. :( Denial feels wonderful, it feels like nothing. If only. :(

 

[ms spock]

Numb, blocked, weeping, numb, blocked, dissociated, maladaptive day dreaming

 

[ladee]

Feeling rested, pain is manageable, and ready for a new day. Loving my life.

 

[8888]

I feel sad today.

 

[ms spock]

I feel like I don't want to feel anymore. I feel like I just want to be shut down. My life feels really hard. But it is me that is making my life so hard by being so hard on myself, and beating myself up. It is so hard to start to be here when you have mostly been dissociated. I also connect with feeling bad about making a mistake with being a bad person who should die because they are bad. Lots of distorted cognition and feeling.

 

[Friday]

Jealousy, grief, despair, SI, rage.

Wheee. :rolleyes:

Disgust.

Let’s go back to bed and start this f*cking day over.

Guess turnaround is fair play, though. Good day yesterday, bad today. f*ckin A.

 

[Tinyflame]

Yes @Friday . :hug:

I also connect with feeling bad about making a mistake with being a bad person who should die because they are bad

^^Relate to that too.

Despair, disgust, so sad, desperation. Hanging on by this much: "-" . :(

On a different note, had to go to a school, the kids were mostly bigger than me. I remember being more 'adult' in choices- good and bad/ thoughts/ concerns, than they seemed to be, 'playing'. Went because of what others gave, including in my family, to get there. And 2 girls were making out, which I don't care either way, but thought interesting, wouldn't have seen that in my day, as no one else there cared, either.

 

[ms spock]

^^Relate to that too.

It's a tricky one.

 

[Teasel]

Low. Tired of making efforts and promptly sabotaging them. I dont know how to go forward when I cant stop myself sabotaging any progress I make.

 

[EveHarrington]

I feel small. (Very triggered right now.)