I think one reason why current popular "virue signally" ideology is so annoying and aggravating for me, is because it reminds me of me; my youthful, immature self. My quite unhinged and ungrounded youth.
I gave myself a lot of grief, for things I was not responsible for. I took on all the feminist, the racist white guilt ideology. I allowed myself to be exploited, manipulated, overworked, exposed and fawned to violent and abusive people because they were from a "minority" so yay diversity!
I couldn't see the individuals for the ideology.
I never learnt some very important "female" skills coz feminism, and being an Aspie that needed extra gentle support for complex tasks.
Instead I put thousands and thousands of hours into perfecting my vocal and performance skills, and ad hoc social work.
I ministered to, and took in homeless teenagers, aboriginal families in crisis, homeless mums and kids.
I had a motto "You never know how close someone is to the edge (suicide) so be kind and helpful" and it was because I lived, perpetually, "close to the edge", myself. I desparately wanted to be loved, but that didn't really happen, (or did it? I can't tell) until my late thirties.
Now, I am so burnt out and sad, from giving and tending to others, for so long, and having so little to show for it all.
I remain reduced to the margins, but I don't think I want to be part of the mainstream, though I would enjoy the opportunity to live where I choose. I don't have that luxury. I do want employment and inclusion, but not at the expense of my soul, my values, my integrity or my health.
Now, one has to avoid the media, unless one wants to witness constant racism against one's own racial group and sexism, against the gender group that has always been filled with some of my favourite people.
I despise the inherent hypocrisy and overzealous virtue signalling, the cucky, sucky, self abnegation so many men and people of my racial group are demonstating, these days, because I used to be like that, and IT WASN'T GOOD or right.
It nearly killed me, had me put myself so far down, NOBODY respected me, or thought about my needs, because I didn't respect myself or think about my needs.
I was a good person being sucked dry, having the life force vacuumed out of me by my own self abnegating beliefs, so mirrored by so many ideologes and PC social justice warriors of today.
I fear it will happen on a large scale, what happened to me.
I ended up losing nearly everything, including my life. And it was a WHITE MALE who saved me. The kindest, most honest, smartest, bravest, person, I know. So screw off with your hatred, racists and sexists! I know! My kid's used to tell me that I was racist against white people, but NOT ANYMORE!
I used to think I was a feminist, but not anymore! I believe in treating EVERYONE with dignity and respect, according to how THEY treat me and other's with the same. If they don't, I have AS MUCH RIGHT AS EVERYONE ELSE to criticize and call out hypocrisy.
I LIKE being me! I'm smart, white, hetero, a MASSIVE breeder, I'm poor, unemployed, "disabled" (with a psycho-social disability, I'm told) I'm creative, artistic, super sensitive, caring and by virtue of my neurodiversity, pretty much an outcast and invisable, now.
I don't need anyone condescending to me. Telling me I can't say things because the selected minorities won't like it. Sure, I have to put up with shitty stuff said about the gender and racial group of some (most) of my favourite people, CONSTANTLY, but I CAN'T speak my truth, oh no, because it's not popular.
Apparently I must be some kind of racist because I don't put up with racism against my own racial group.
Oh, and there's a free for all on Christian slandering, but don't criticize anything to do with Islam or Judaism, no matter what member's might be doing that hurts my cultural group, that has to do with their cultural narrative and sense of entitlement and their own segregation.
Oh no, they are out of bounds! Every minority EXCEPT white Aryan people is out of bounds (and yes, on a planetary scale, we ARE a minority and soon to be much more of one, if this self adnegation, virtue signalling, madness keeps up).
Oh and DON'T criticize the very, mega, rich, if they happen to be of Hebrew origin, even, if they are cause of so much upheaval and war, at our expense! Even if they ARE white (because they are not properly white, like us despicable Aryan whites, us and our privilege!). NO! I DON'T AGREE! And I have EVERY RIGHT TO!
Sure, we are in need of awareness of economics, human rights violations, and who to trust, no doubt about it.
But things are COMPLEX and CANNOT be reduced down to generalizations about people based on racial identity and gender. It's just STUPID!
