Medical Complex PTSD

[Breakingdown]

Hi Everyone,

I am a 32 year old male that is starting to breakdown both mentally and physically. This PTSD has taken toll on my body and not sure how much of this it can take. I feel like an old man but I am seeking help. To it bluntly, I suffer from sleep problems - and have been so for the best part of a 10 years or so. I think I always used to suffer from poor sleep but never really thought about it until now. I used to struggle with school - then went obese - That obesity really took on the body, but I fought it and won, still struggle with it today, but fast forward a few years later, I contracted typhoid from an overseas trip - recovered - then lost feelings to the left side of - recovered from that. I then suffered a car accident which was the breaking point for me. A drunk pedestrian ran into my car and went like a ragdoll. To this day, I can't break that vision out of my head and everytime I take a right turn I get jolts of flashbacks and get startled. He's okay but the jolt is something that has made me numb - and numb

The shock was so bad from the accident that it changed the shape of my face and that change in my facial structure is what caused me to fall into a deeper depressed state. I am also going blind because my optic nerve got damaged - no cure for it. I also struggle with sleep too.

To make matters worse, my grand mother passed away too - not sure if it's going to get any better for me. I am completely lonely and just have my family to support me.

The thing that keeps me going is music.

 

[somerandomguy]

Hi, @Breakingdown ... welcome to the forums. It sounds like you have really been through some shit.

Are you currently in therapy?

 

[Friday]

Totally with you on the music... and f*ck me have I had years like that, where if it wasn’t for bad luck, I’d have no luck at all :banghead:

The ptsd cup explanation <<< One of the most immediately useful & immensely helpful things I have ever come across.

 

[Breakingdown]

Hi, @Breakingdown ... welcome to the forums. It sounds like you have really been through some shit.

Are you currently in therapy?

I am but I sometimes wake up at 1-2 am in pain

Totally with you on the music... and f*ck me have I had years like that, where if it wasn’t for bad luck, I’d have no luck at all :banghead:

The ptsd cup explanation <<< One of the most immediately useful & immensely helpful things I have ever come across.

I also have trouble looking at myself in front of a mirror.

I also require a respirator to breathe for me in the night which I take off each night.

Music shines the light in the darkness. To me it showed me the way to get better.

 

[Longtime ptsd]

Hi Everyone,

I am a 32 year old male that is starting to breakdown both mentally and physically. This PTSD has taken toll on my body and not sure how much of this it can take. I feel like an old man but I am seeking help. To it bluntly, I suffer from sleep problems - and have been so for the best part of a 10 years or so. I think I always used to suffer from poor sleep but never really thought about it until now. I used to struggle with school - then went obese - That obesity really took on the body, but I fought it and won, still struggle with it today, but fast forward a few years later, I contracted typhoid from an overseas trip - recovered - then lost feelings to the left side of - recovered from that. I then suffered a car accident which was the breaking point for me. A drunk pedestrian ran into my car and went like a ragdoll. To this day, I can't break that vision out of my head and everytime I take a right turn I get jolts of flashbacks and get startled. He's okay but the jolt is something that has made me numb - and numb

The shock was so bad from the accident that it changed the shape of my face and that change in my facial structure is what caused me to fall into a deeper depressed state. I am also going blind because my optic nerve got damaged - no cure for it. I also struggle with sleep too.

To make matters worse, my grand mother passed away too - not sure if it's going to get any better for me. I am completely lonely and just have my family to support me.

The thing that keeps me going is music.

Well this is my very first posting anything anywhere. I am a bit older than you are.

Have had this most of my life. Actually going to start therapy for the first-time in my life. I've taken just about every med. On the market. Wish I would have done this sooner.

But rest assured you are not alone.