What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[NatBird]

Without hope. Without help, despite trying. I guess I do it wrong? Alone and abandoned, by God and all people. Hollowed out. And on top of it, I have my performance eval tomorrow. Which makes me feel-'great' (not).

I guess passively SI as I walked in to traffic that is supposed to stop but rarely does. Had I been 30 seconds faster would have. Indifferent about that.

Just dumb. Dumb, alone, trapped, no hope. And terrified.











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@Tinyflame hey how are you today? is there any person or service you can connect with? I imagine you have tried many things but please don't give up. I don't know the exact emotional space you're in but have been in a similar space to the one you described above many times. Sometimes, it was a call with someone on a helpline. Sometimes, it was just a bit of exercise, a bath, sleep. Sometimes people here. Other times, nothing but holding on for the next day, and a lot of tears. Please hold on. Keeping you in heart-mind

 

[Tinyflame]

I couldn't sleep til after 4 a.m. ??, due to the misfortune of a situation with a person so out of line, I didn't know whether to complain, or file a police report, or both. Sleeping on it am doing nothing. But really, it totally creeped me out, went to vote and they knew our house exactly, who we were, that we hadn't moved, named a situation (very negative) from 20+ years ago of which they shouted out to the people there as well as the rest of the info, knew of changes made which you'd only know if you watched for years, and I don't even know who this whack job is- and he was working there! :(

 

[Lionheart]

I am feeling relaxed but frustrated that a certain family member keeps taking advantage of my good nature. This person keeps coming to me for money when they A). make the same amount of money that I do B). mismanage their funds due to a lack of impulse control C). have a history of manipulating people and "working the system". I am also frustrated at myself for allowing this person to take advantage of me, but I am not about to dwell on it. I am cutting them off financially and I refuse to feel guilty over it. Determined to be a little less naive and remain aware of this persons' guilt trips.

 

[BrownLea12]

I am feeling relaxed but frustrated that a certain family member keeps taking advantage of my good nature. This person keeps coming to me for money when they A). make the same amount of money that I do B). mismanage their funds due to a lack of impulse control C). have a history of manipulating people and "working the system". I am also frustrated at myself for allowing this person to take advantage of me, but I am not about to dwell on it. I am cutting them off financially and I refuse to feel guilty over it. Determined to be a little less naive and remain aware of this persons' guilt trips.

Boundaries are so tough sometimes. Hang in there! And good for you for choosing not to accept guilt. :)

I am feeling sad today. No particular reason, just sad.

 

[Tinyflame]

Hard to gear up.
Like a lousy, useless person.
Stressed out and afraid by events this morning, as well as everything. Wish I could say 'everything' is a generalization, but it's not.
Lost and hopeless.
Wish my past, myself, my choices, had been different.

 

[Mee]

Exhausted. Overstimulated. A little disappointed but not overwhelmingly so. Depleted.

 

[Lucycat]

Stressed to f*ck!

 

[Tinyflame]

Relief, contemplation, responsibility (in a good way), exhaustion, anxiety about too many things and people, but happy or peace when not anxious.

There is something profound too when you look up and expect to see hate, rage, disappointment and disgust, and instead there is happiness, and peace. So gratitude, and awe.

 

[Tinyflame]

Funny. Got texts from one sister, with some good news for them, then- hate mail/ text. -?? :( Yikes. Have concluded I am allergic to : drama, hatred, anger, rage, and the like. :(
Family? :( :cry:

 

[Lionheart]

The medication my doctor prescribed for pain is not helping me. I feel defeated, totally frustrated, and sad. I am exercising and it is not helping either. One can only push thru the pain to a certain point before the physical body just gives out.

 

[Tinyflame]

Wow. Hate mail most of the night to the present, I should have turned off the phone. And never answered. :( What am I feeling- Idk. Awful. Frightened. Creeped out. Targeted. Sick. Sad.

 

[Tinyflame]

Sick to my stomach. :sick:
Overwhelmed and over-charged. I think my blood pressure is too high, or actually I know, just heart rate, so it's hard to breathe.