I have an issue of ignoring my issues medically and therapy-wise since I get so dejected when I try three or so times and get nowhere.
But, lately, God is like - GO TO THE DOCTOR to me.
It depends on if you have work insurance, or not working. If you have a high deductible, or not.
I know that you may not be able to afford both, so perhaps starting the Doctor is the easier one first. Trust me, medical checks can help to put your mind at ease.
You can call your health plan on your ID Card and see if they can walk you through the online portal to view doctors in the network. Then start calling docs and asking what they charge.
Then, if you work, ask your job if they have a Benefit Booklet. If you work at a small company, they might not have it, But EAP is the employee’s free access to therapy, for a few sessions. “Employee Assistance Program.”