I am so weak. I truly thought just walking more would help me regain strength after over a year of almost all the time being in bed. It didn't. The less I sleep the weaker I am. I was meant to catsit. Just feed twice a day but I didn't tell my neigbhbours about my messed up sleeping pattern. That is around four to six hours every morning to midday. That means I am not feeling their cats how they would and I feel guilty. They apparently ignore their kibble so I know they are hungry since they haven't gotten wet food. Cats are so picky. What if my neighbours come home to hungry cats? What if there is no water left? My mother gave them food but what about water?
I should have said no when they asked me for help. I am to whatever for that much responsibility. But would that have been an excuse? I cant feed your cats because I cant do this and that because I have ocd tied woth cptsd? The yarenot my pets and I am really not made for caring for other peoples things, pets or even children.
I just have so much ocd stuff to do before sleeping that I force myself to stay awake. My ocd is harming me and it is propably not good if I stay awake al night keeping my dog from a calm night.
I just can't feel safe and being out of control and unable to do ocd things while asleep is very uncomfortanle for me. Thank you for reading my rambling. Maybe I should just be open to m neighbours about the different feeding Times I had to do. Their instructions were just twice a day
I should have said no when they asked me for help. I am to whatever for that much responsibility. But would that have been an excuse? I cant feed your cats because I cant do this and that because I have ocd tied woth cptsd? The yarenot my pets and I am really not made for caring for other peoples things, pets or even children.
I just have so much ocd stuff to do before sleeping that I force myself to stay awake. My ocd is harming me and it is propably not good if I stay awake al night keeping my dog from a calm night.
I just can't feel safe and being out of control and unable to do ocd things while asleep is very uncomfortanle for me. Thank you for reading my rambling. Maybe I should just be open to m neighbours about the different feeding Times I had to do. Their instructions were just twice a day