Do you all go to sleep each night and pray that you just won't wake up anymore?
I spend each night praying that I just don't wake up anymore. I'm so tired of dealing with this each day and being separated from my family just makes the feelings more intense. As I've said, I don't believe in suicide since I've seen how it affects the families and those who respond, but I truly wish God would just stop my heart as I sleep even if I wake up in Hell at least I won't be causing anyone anymore pain or anger.
I spend each night praying that I just don't wake up anymore. I'm so tired of dealing with this each day and being separated from my family just makes the feelings more intense. As I've said, I don't believe in suicide since I've seen how it affects the families and those who respond, but I truly wish God would just stop my heart as I sleep even if I wake up in Hell at least I won't be causing anyone anymore pain or anger.