Sufferer Looking to expand the support system

[centaurus]

Hello, all

I'm terrible at introductions...sorry in advance.

I've dealt with C-PTSD / DID for many years. Between a couple decades of therapy and traveling the rabbit holes of research, I have a pretty extensive toolbox of coping skills. It's not perfect, but it typically gets me through. There are two things that I don't have, though: a large support system and a remedy for imposter syndrome.

My spouse is amazing but is my only real support, and I know that is exhausting. So finding more support for myself is a win for my spouse, as well.

I think I'm much better at dealing with trauma than daily living. Work, college, homeschool, teenagers, personal projects.... It's a lot.

Recent happenings in therapy have led me to look for more support, as I'm struggling with the effects of EMDR. Spouse works nights, so I'm dealing with nighttime issues on my own.

Anyway, I look forward to seeing how things go here.

 

[Riley Jones]

Hello, all

I'm terrible at introductions...sorry in advance.

I've dealt with C-PTSD / DID for many years. Between a couple decades of therapy and traveling the rabbit holes of research, I have a pretty extensive toolbox of coping skills. It's not perfect, but it typically gets me through. There are two things that I don't have, though: a large support system and a remedy for imposter syndrome.

My spouse is amazing but is my only real support, and I know that is exhausting. So finding more support for myself is a win for my spouse, as well.

I think I'm much better at dealing with trauma than daily living. Work, college, homeschool, teenagers, personal projects.... It's a lot.

Recent happenings in therapy have led me to look for more support, as I'm struggling with the effects of EMDR. Spouse works nights, so I'm dealing with nighttime issues on my own.

Anyway, I look forward to seeing how things go here.

Hello and welcome to the myptsd.com community. Thank you for sharing your story with us. It sounds like you've been navigating quite the journey, and it's truly admirable how you've persevered and built a toolbox to manage your complex experiences. You're absolutely in the right place to find more support and connect with people who understand what you're going through.

C-PTSD and DID can indeed be incredibly challenging, especially when balancing life responsibilities like work, college, homeschooling, and family. It's clear you have a lot on your plate, and seeking additional support is a crucial step not just for you, but also for your spouse. It's smart and considerate of you to expand that support network to ease the load on both of you.

I'm glad you're reaching out as you navigate the effects of EMDR. It can be a very intense process, but you're not alone here. This community is filled with people who have similar experiences and can offer both support and insight. Sharing your feelings and experiences can alleviate some of the burden and help you feel more connected.

There are various forums here that focus on different aspects, from therapy experiences to managing daily stressors, where you can engage with others who might share your interests and concerns. And remember, while peer support is invaluable, don't hesitate to reach out to a professional if you feel the need—it’s a sign of strength and self-care.

Take your time to explore, engage, and find the spaces that feel most supportive to you. We're all here to help each other through the ups and downs, and I'm really glad you’ve decided to join us. Welcome aboard.

 

[PamelaS]

Hello, all

I'm terrible at introductions...sorry in advance.

I've dealt with C-PTSD / DID for many years. Between a couple decades of therapy and traveling the rabbit holes of research, I have a pretty extensive toolbox of coping skills. It's not perfect, but it typically gets me through. There are two things that I don't have, though: a large support system and a remedy for imposter syndrome.

My spouse is amazing but is my only real support, and I know that is exhausting. So finding more support for myself is a win for my spouse, as well.

I think I'm much better at dealing with trauma than daily living. Work, college, homeschool, teenagers, personal projects.... It's a lot.

Recent happenings in therapy have led me to look for more support, as I'm struggling with the effects of EMDR. Spouse works nights, so I'm dealing with nighttime issues on my own.

Anyway, I look forward to seeing how things go here.

Glad you reached out. Glad you got connected with people that get it who can come alongside you. Hope you find a lot of ideas and feedback that will help you. I have found this forum to be a lifeline for me. Hearing others share of their trauma and their methods and modalities of treatment as well as just plain kindness and encouragement has been just what I’ve needed. And the added bonus of being able to encourage others gives me purpose here. Hope you find what you’re looking for. Hope this place enables you to get through what you’re going through.

 

[arfie]

hello centaurus. welcome to the forum. sorry for what brings you here, but glad you are here.

i, too, have a terrifically supportive spouse and his support is more priceless than i can say, but spouses make lousy therapists. the love of my life supports me best AS a spouse while encouraging me to seek therapy support from more objective sources. ptsd is one of those things you can't understand unless you have been there. i kinda hope my spouse never really understands. just hoping.

peer support, such as i find here, is an important piece of my therapy network. hope it helps you as much as it has helped me. welcome aboard.

 

[Friday]

Welcome to the community!

My spouse is amazing but is my only real support, and I know that is exhausting. So finding more support for myself is a win for my spouse, as well.

Cha. There’s this bliss/strength/energy that happens when the people we love are “just” the people we love, themselves, in a relationship with us. Not “filling in” for aaaaaaall the other roles.

One man band, versus virtuoso players? No contest.

 

[Metropolitan Nomad]

My support system is non-existent. I have no friends and my family has imploded. I'm also autistic and have (undiagnosed but I'm convinced I have) dyspraxia. Trust is gone.

 

[PamelaS]

My support system is non-existent. I have no friends and my family has imploded. I'm also autistic and have (undiagnosed but I'm convinced I have) dyspraxia. Trust is gone.

Sorry for your struggles. Glad you reached out. I have found that even though I don’t have many people in my life physically, I can get support from many people through online communities like this one. Keep reaching out. Keep sharing your challenges. Try to find commonality with some of the other members here. I recognize that autism makes it more challenging, but keep trying. I’m also in an online group for people with chronic illness. Sometimes it helps to commiserate. Sometimes it helps to encourage someone else. Wishing you well as you keep pushing forward.

 

[Metropolitan Nomad]

Thanks for that. Real world connections are hard for me. I had something of a breakdown a couple of years ago and as the black and red of rage and despair faded away I found myself in a harder, colder and far more brutal world then ever before.

I am full of anger and vengeance. I yearn for the day when Karma strikes everyone of the b*stards.

 

[PamelaS]

Thanks for that. Real world connections are hard for me. I had something of a breakdown a couple of years ago and as the black and red of rage and despair faded away I found myself in a harder, colder and far more brutal world then ever before.

I am full of anger and vengeance. I yearn for the day when Karma strikes everyone of the b*stards.

I’m sorry that you are feeling a lot of anger and vengeance. I used to have a lot of anger. Now I’m just exhausted from it all. I hope that you are able to work through some of the anger, for your sake. I found that it was not good for me or for the people in my life. I have such a bad taste in my mouth for harming people because of everything I have gone through. Now I just don’t want to be responsible for doing to someone else what has been done to me. I hope that makes sense. Best wishes.