Trauma Clinic Assessment

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I just read this whole thread for the first time, and I have to say, NH, I am so in awe of you. The strength and determination to get better that you've shown - the bravery and courage in fighting your fears - they're inspiring. I have my appt with my T this week and I'm going to try to remember that inspiration so I can be open too. Hope you're doing okay today.

 

[Nighthawk]

I do believe the TT and I have broken ground... in the last two sessions. I think I am starting to trust him. This work is not easy at all and there are so many issues. Words are massive triggers.

NH

 

[aatredes]

Thank you.
This is about the scariest thing I have done on my own accord.
NH

I know all about that Nighthawk. You're not alone!! All my best to you!!!!

 

[Heather]

TT

I feel dumb what is a TT ?

 

[Nighthawk]

I feel dumb what is a TT ?

Don't feel that way it is a Trauma Therapist:O_o:

 

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Trauma Therapist?

Oops, I was late.

 

[Nighthawk]

20 appointments later.

Last week I was asked to provide 3-5 goals for therapy, this seemed more than I wanted to face. Although painful I was in panic for two days wondering just how many ways my TT wants to get rid of me I calmed down and got to thinking. Well here they are

1. How to trust people a little more including TT
2. Not to read into things to the tenth degree
3. Fight for self-validation and fight to not invalidate myself
4. Learn to not compound issues as one
5. Learn to live amongst the living

These are all very difficult. We spoke about them one by one and he pointed out that just a few weeks ago I would have not been able to give him anything much. He seemed to be surprised by my goals being so focused. He also asked how therapy has helped in these goals up to this point. It actually was a good session and to take note of progress and the slow direction of forward was much needed.

After all of this I decided to read back on some of my posts and journal and was actually amazed at the progress I have made. I know that there is still a lot of work, pain, fear and ............ to confront to continue moving forward but WOW :speechless: I can only recommend to myself to try pay closer attention to all the small hard hurdles I have crossed.

NH

 

[KP the nut]

After all of this I decided to read back on some of my posts and journal and was actually amazed at the progress I have made. I know that there is still a lot of work, pain, fear and ............ to confront to continue moving forward but WOW :speechless: I can only recommend to myself to try pay closer attention to all the small hard hurdles I have crossed.

(((NH)))
It is so easy to be hard on ourselves, to think that we are not making progress. You are so right, look back at where we were when we started. I am almost a different person, able to achieve and manage so much more. We just need to keep remembering that.

Linking arms
KP

 

[seedling]

NH, your goals are so wonderful. They could have been written for me, too. They hit right to the core and encompass some of the more insidious syptoms that are not always so clear. No wonder your TT was impressed.

 

[James B.]

NH, I agree with what seedling wrote and just wanna chime in a most sincere best wishes for all the hard work you're doing! My unhelpful thinking styles have been a major hurdle, but...chipping away, they (it) is getting better. Good Luck Nighthawk!

 

[Nighthawk]

Thanks James
Good to see you.

 

[anni]

I'm not sure any of the hurdles were so small, either. Yes, it's quite lovely to sometimes notice how much more of you is in your posts these days. I'm glad you're seeing that yourself- it's all your own work so savoring the marachino cherry on top I hope is very sweet.

Hugs, NH.

nni