What Cant You Get Out Of Your Mind?

[Nighthawk]

The insidious thought that at the core I am unlikable and undeserving, and that it is only a matter of time before people who get to know me will see for themselves how I really am.

I too am with you on this one . I cant get my mother out of my head the damage she has done

 

[shell]

The beltings for things I didn't do, being called a liar.

 

[KP the nut]

Feelings of abandonment

 

[Heather]

Hands. The feelings of hands between my legs. I HATE IT!!!!!!!!

 

[KP the nut]

That despite fighting it hard that underneath I am not worthy

 

[NIKI]

As a teen, my mother telling me she hated me. Her telling me she wished I had never been born (me agreeing with her that I wished I had never been born also.) If she could do it over again she would never have had kids. She said that she wished I would die. I so much did not deserve this, I was a good kid. :(

 

[just me here]

As a teen, my mother telling me she hated me. Her telling me she wished I had never been born (me agreeing with her that I wished I had never been born also.) If she could do it over again she would never have had kids. She said that she wished I would die. I so much did not deserve this, I was a good kid. :(

are you a parent yourself? Stuff like that was bad enough when I was a kid, but after having my own and realising how warped my parents were really helped me make the jump from thinking I was the cause of the BS and realising they were the problem all along.

I bet you still are a good kid, and if you have good kids of your own you probably tell them so all the time, too.

 

[KP the nut]

I can't stop thinking about girlie investigation stuff at the doctors next Thursday :eek::sick:

 

[NIKI]

are you a parent yourself? Stuff like that was bad enough when I was a kid, but after having my own and realising how warped my parents were really helped me make the jump from thinking I was the cause of the BS and realising they were the problem all along.
I bet you still are a good kid, and if you have good kids of your own you probably tell them so all the time, too.

I am a parent of two WONDERFUL kids. I tell them EVERYDAY how much I love them, how proud I am of them. I never believed my mom when she said I was a bad kid, never. I knew she was wrong!

Ya, I think I am still a good kid. :D

Thanks!

 

[stuff]

As a teen, my mother telling me she hated me. Her telling me she wished I had never been born. ... If she could do it over again she would never have had kids.

I can relate. That's my earliest memory from around the age of three. "I'd ruined her life and she wished I had never been born."

 

[Nighthawk]

That I will never be good enough

 

[hazen]

The next therapy session I will have. My therapist asked me to bring in a picture of myself as a child. I am terrified of what my reaction will be when we have to talk about it. I am dreading it.

And the looks on the people's faces after my father struck me on the head at the department store... I couldn't stop crying, and they stared at me. That shame.