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[Mercy]

Wow, That is a victory indeed. Taking control of one's life seems to be one of the hardest things PTSD folk need to learn. I glad you feel you have done that in the medicine area. Congratulations!![DLMURL="https://www.ptsdforum.org/c/javascript:;"]:cool:[/DLMURL]

 

[nie]

Nicolette,
Sorry to have been out of the loop and just now getting caught up. I am praying for you and thankful you are going to get the help you need sooner rather than later.
Nie

 

[Nicolette]

Currently at the hospital for pre-operative appointment. Found out definitely overnight stay and the specialist I saw seems to be the one going to operate.

Still feel sick from medication required for ultrasound. Had to go to bed afterwards yesterday. Test results are still inconclusive but narrowing things down. It seems a lot of what was done 3 years ago is recurring but this time all the different specialists are communicating & taking things further.

Just tired now...

 

[amethist]

Healing Energy Lotus Blossom​

 

[Nicolette]

Oh Amethist - how cool. Did you know my business logo incorporates the lotus flower, a woman and coming out of the water reaching for greater heights?

 

[Srain]

((((((((((((((((Hugs))))))))))))))))))

It is truly beautiful Amesthist!!
Nicolette, I'm so sorry you are feeling so ill from the testing. I hope you were able to get rest.

Thinking of you, sending peace and comfort,
Rain

 

[Nicolette]

Thanks for your continued thoughts and support everyone.

Now the challenge is to come off my medication 2 full days before surgery as it has a chance of increasing the risk of the anesthetic having complications. They are even thinking of even just numbing me from under the breast downwards which includes a feeling of paralysis. I am sort of freaked about this due to having a bad epidural experience but I am trying to come to terms that they will do what is best for my health and I will just have to try and stay calm.

I hope I can keep myself together with working up to surgery and going off medication rather quickly reducing from 175mg twice a day to nothing in 4 days when the medication says "do not suddenly stop taking this medication" which is what the anesthetist initially just said to do. She rang up and I received an email tonight on what I need to do but was then told to recommence. I am interested to see if I can do without the antidepressant and can now just cope with the Valium since Anthony has settled as have other issues in our life. Maybe? It seems stress/anxiety is my major issue so I think I will monitor how I go over the next 6 days. If I start becoming a pain in the butt please point it out as I think feedback (as in noting what others notice) will be beneficial in the decision making process.

After 5 hours at the hospital today without food (just because I couldn't get out and then had to go straight back to work) I think I am exhausted. Time to do the minimum work I need to do and then off to bed for this little vegemite.

Apologies to other members for not participating and I hope that when I am well I can return the support you are now providing me.

 

[purple butterfly]

Thinking of you Nicolette

 

[Deleted member 6617]

Thoughts and prayers going out for you today!

 

[Mercy]

Support is a huge part of what happens here. You being the administrator might feel some pressure about tending some of us lost sheep. This is your time of need. Guess what...

What goes around comes around in a good way too. I think you did a great job of teaching us how to support one another and you. They say that imitation is the most sincere compliment that can be given. Little girl with a huge smile and her thumbs in her armpits strutting, "Ain't you proud of us."

 

[AngelaMarie]

Thinking of you!!

 

[Srain]

Awwwwwwww Nicolette, what a yucky thing to be going through :(

Sounds like no fun at all! I can't image that you will be a pain in the butt but I have no doubts that Anthony will catch that first :speechless:. Anyhoooo, I hope that what needs to be done gets done quickly and you get on the road to healing quickly!

peace and healing,
Rain