What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Queen Boudica]

I think I've been hit by that express train now and it is backing up and coming back to hit me again. And you know what? I deserve it. I wish it would just get the job over with. Just flatten me and bury me. Squash me into nothingness.

 

[ms spock]

Even with everything I've endured throughout my life, I still didn't know a person could feel as much pain as I do now.

That much pain is really difficult to deal with. I really feel for you.

Sometimes it is a wonder that a person can keep going with that much pain inside.

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[ms spock]

I just really don't want to be alone and, of course, as always, I am.

This is very hard.

I am quite a socially gregarious woman but at this time I feel so alone. I feel for you with your feeling of aloneness. This is so hard and hurtful and confusing in some ways.

I can't make that better for you and I wish I could.

I am thinking of you today.
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[ms spock]

Unsure :unsure:

I've got to drive into Wales tomorrow and I haven't driven that far for over 20 years due to the panic! Talk about exposure therapy, I'm terrified! :eek:

Gosh you are magnificently brave! Egads. Is that Wales in the U.K - do they have a bridge or something? Or do you drive on to a boat? Are you driving from Ireland or Scotland? I am just trying to work it out so I can send you some good vibes.

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[ms spock]

2 weeks of fighting screaming Migraines, very emotionally exhausted, fearful of upsetting people, having my opinions makes me feel this way, and yet I realize everything feels risky right now. I don't want to be the weird girl under the tree by herself during recess...

Ouch! Migraines!

Having your own opinions and feelings can be challenging. You are staying with it which is quite remarkable.

Come and sit next to me under the other tree and we can be the two weird women under the tree (if that is okay with you.)

When everything feels risky and overwhelming take care. Sometimes you need to go slowly and take it easy and sometimes you need to push through. Only you can know what you need to do.

*looks up*

Wow we have a splendid fairy wren in our tree!

 

[ms spock]

You probably think I'm mad or disappointed but in all honesty I am happy to know that those are 2 less people I have to deal with. I'm struggling with enough bullshit as it is.

I don't think you are mad or disappointed at all (though it would be fine if you felt those things.)

Oh it can be such a relief to get rid of blood sucking, life force consuming and draining people!

And later on you wonder how on earth it was that you put up with them for so long!

Their loss, not yours!
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[ms spock]

Sometimes I am my own worst enemy. :(

You are certainly not alone on this one.
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[Queen Boudica]

I'm fed with this gash on my shin which does not want to heal up. I had a nasty fall down some cement stairs on March 29th 2008 and it has yet to heal. I have had every kind of antibiotics you can think for the last 3 and a half years.

Have you tried, manuka oil, manuka honey or tea tree oil? They are natural antibiotics. Kill MRSA

 

[ms spock]

I feel a bit relieved. I went to see my psychriatrist today and it is my stuff and I have to do it. No one can do it for me.

So I feel relieved and a bit washed out.

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[ms spock]

And you know what? I deserve it. I wish it would just get the job over with. Just flatten me and bury me. Squash me into nothingness.

No you don't!

I do understand wanting all the pain to end and to have a break from it.

 

[ms spock]

Yes relieved and washed out.

 

[Incendiu]

I feel like a thunderstorm, full of energy that will burst out and set everything free...but in a good and creative way.