I am not sure what i am supposed to be doing by creating a thread or introducing myself.
Basically i grew up in a house of sexual and physical abuse with alcohol. I went to therapy and lived and worked through my PTSD then - I didn't have any problems. I am now 41 in 2004 I had a jeep roll over due to a granite rock which blew out my tire - i was not even going 5 miles an hour but my jeep rolled.
I had my seat belt on and when i released it after having seizures a couple days following that were not controlled they found out i had a traumatic brain injury. I recovered 8 months still no problems went back to my parents late 2008 to help my father per my mother request - my mother is and always has been emotionally unstable - there I was beat refused treatment and just a lot of terror I just got out this past June of this year and shortly after not even 24 hrs perhaps a little more I was arrested it was a terrifying experience my mother showed up - I didn't commit the crime but that doesn't matter really - when i returned to help my parents because I didn't protect myself or defend I suffered another TBI this one more difficult and had physical complications which are now relatively stable however now I am suffering full blown PTSD with nightmares from jail and from the past couple of years I was at my parents house. relationships are hard i can't seem to get myself out of flight or fight mode. I was taught to use alcohol to cope and offered it throughout my life - I am in an outpatient programs going to therapy for PTSD seen a psych doctor - i know if i can get it under control my life will be fuller and so enjoyable yet when you can't trust and no one truly understands - I received a CD for guided imagery for PTSD please no I had panic attacks instead.
I am looking for support education and hoping I can provide even hope and support to others as well.
Basically i grew up in a house of sexual and physical abuse with alcohol. I went to therapy and lived and worked through my PTSD then - I didn't have any problems. I am now 41 in 2004 I had a jeep roll over due to a granite rock which blew out my tire - i was not even going 5 miles an hour but my jeep rolled.
I had my seat belt on and when i released it after having seizures a couple days following that were not controlled they found out i had a traumatic brain injury. I recovered 8 months still no problems went back to my parents late 2008 to help my father per my mother request - my mother is and always has been emotionally unstable - there I was beat refused treatment and just a lot of terror I just got out this past June of this year and shortly after not even 24 hrs perhaps a little more I was arrested it was a terrifying experience my mother showed up - I didn't commit the crime but that doesn't matter really - when i returned to help my parents because I didn't protect myself or defend I suffered another TBI this one more difficult and had physical complications which are now relatively stable however now I am suffering full blown PTSD with nightmares from jail and from the past couple of years I was at my parents house. relationships are hard i can't seem to get myself out of flight or fight mode. I was taught to use alcohol to cope and offered it throughout my life - I am in an outpatient programs going to therapy for PTSD seen a psych doctor - i know if i can get it under control my life will be fuller and so enjoyable yet when you can't trust and no one truly understands - I received a CD for guided imagery for PTSD please no I had panic attacks instead.
I am looking for support education and hoping I can provide even hope and support to others as well.
