PTSD Under Control, Then Wham! Horrific Crash

[Canuckster2005]

Hi,,
I'm just a newbie in this forum, but we all have the same common bond,PTSD.
I was in a horrific crash 4 years ago when all hell broke loose. Unfortunately, I had witnessed 1 male physically cut in half at the waist, and his upper torso burnt black beyond recognition not to mention the fires and crashed tractor trailers.
I have had numerous meds, drugs, lack of sleep,and all the other "wonderful" things associated with this, but in all honesty, I started feeling like a "person" again until another event in my life turned things upside down.
My Dad was diagnosed with inoperable lung cancer and had about 3 weeks to live. I had telephoned my "step-mother" to make arrangements to have my 2 daughters visit, as they live around 60 miles from me.
To make a long story short, my "step-mother" would not allow myself or my daughters to say a final good-bye as "we" where not welcomed.
I found out 2 weeks later that my Dad had died 2 weeks before in a cancer hospital in my town, but my "step-mother" didn't want me to know.
I was then informed a week after he died my "step mother" buried my Dad, but I wasn't told because "she didn't want me there"
I tried to let this pass, but on December 14,2007 along with my medications, I bought a bottle of rum.
After about 20 ounces,(1/2 bottle) I telephoned my "step-mother" and told her what I thought but she hung up. I went "crazy" I ended up calling her 7 times and left some bad messages (which I don't remember") as I had a mental breakdown.
The next day December 15, 2007 I had a visit from the police,taken to jail, whereas I've now been charged with 2 counts of criminal harrassment and uttering threats.(Finger printed, photographed)
I found it quite remarkable how I could go off the "deep end" after feeling so great lately.
Sorry I ran off topic,, my name is Scott and I live in London Ontario Canada.

 

[Deleted member 93]

I assume you mean 2006? I know dates can get foggy, especially when around the new year. Welcome to the forum.

 

[Linda]

Hi Scott, welcome, hopefully you will find the support you need right now.

 

[anthony]

Hi Scott, welcome to the forum. I must say though, from your heading, PTSD is never under control without serious trauma therapy. It takes years to do it, I know. You can really get it under control though if you want too....

I must add... I think your MIL is obviously one very nasty woman.

 

[cookie]

welcome to the forum, scott.
cathy

 

[Nam]

Hey Scott. Sorry you had to go through the original trauma let alone being put through the mud with your MIL. I'm glad you've found us. Welcome.

 

[porkyrees]

Hello scott I assume that is your name as canuckster didnt sound right.Yes mate I am a new boy myself I live in Lithgow,NSW, Australia.What you experienced I believe to be a dissociative event it is brought on usually by a triggering event ie your mother-in-law.The way its been explained to me by the Doctors is that all your previous traumas are brought back in your head and can cause a type of amnesiac experience.I had a similar problem around 7yrs ago and had no recollection of what I had done and I even drove my car 25klms in that state.I spoke to my wife and daughter and they later stated in court that I seemed quite normal except I had a vacant stare on my face as if I was oblivious to what was going on.Anyway i spent time in prison when I was released I was never aware of this problem untill I was sent to numerous Doctors.It is very scary as to this day I still have no recollection of the incident and if it wasnt for the police photos I still wouldnt have known what I had done.It could have been a lot more serious and it still worries me to this day that something like this could happen again.I now know what sort of triggers can set me off and I try to stay clear.Porky Rees

 

[pandora]

Hi Scott
Sorry to hear about what happened with your dad. My Dad died 20 years ago and although i would like to forget the funeral i guess i am fortunate to have had the right to go.
i am new here and still a bit nervous and still trying to understand the membership process. i also live in ontario.niagara falls.
Take care