What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[intothelight]

Feeling reserved optimism. I stepped off the path into a jungle and had no idea where I was or where I was going. No I have stepped into a clearing and there are many paths ahead. I hope that God directs down the right one and I have the sense and trust enough to let him.

 

[Hashi]

I feel like I'm sinking. I'm exhausted by the sadness I'm feeling. I'm exhausted by working on healing.

I'm telling myself its like the snowfall we had last night. Today it's slowly melting, drip by drip. If there could be more warmth, more intensity, it would melt away quickly. But that intensity isn't there. It's slow and gradual and will take time to thaw and leave. Which is better than freezing over again, in which case it will stay much longer.

I'm trying not to numb again. I'm trying to allow the tears and grief, bit by bit.

 

[Barberian]

&#^$!* OUCH!

 

[Froggie]

I find it really hard not being able to go outside unless it's just freezing point to go for a walk. Chemo has rendered me so sensitive to the cold that I get frostbite easily. My daughter witnessed this one evening when we were just doing grocery shopping. I'm tired of being cooped up, of not being able to go out for some fresh air and feeling the sun on my face. Feeling that I'm really in a mild depression mode... and hoping that it stays in a mild form. I keep having flashes of Easter ... ahhhh warmer weather, I will go out more often to appreciate, I think this will really do me some good. Thinking about my garden ... a lot smaller this year compared to previous years !!! but definately, I need that activity to keep me going. I miss the outside!

 

[Froggie]

((((Barberian))))) was that a physical and/or emotional ouch ?

 

[Barberian]

Physical, I forgot to take any of my meds the last few days. Tonight my body decided to take it's revenge :eek:

 

[KP the nut]

Thinking about my garden ... a lot smaller this year compared to previous years !!! but definately, I need that activity to keep me going. I miss the outside!

(((Darling Froggie))), I know it is not the same as being outside. But, what about planting indoor planters/boxes with bulbs. If you did it at a table by a window (even better if the sun were shining in) it would at least have your hands in soil and be working with plants.

I used to have a bottle garden (yeah I know very 70s/80s) but I would spend ages tending it. I also have a couple of bonsai trees.

Love
KP

 

[cat]

Struggling a today, to much to think & worry about. I've been doing so well lately but my physical health is letting me down, nothing serious food poisoning, inflamed muscles in back, asthma & now a head cold. Just feel so warn out & cant take anymore time off work or will be facing disciplinary action.

So hard to explain to employers that I've been off work for good reasons, now i've got another round of meetings with occupational health, so more stress that I could do without.

Sorry moan over, like all of us I would just like a few days off ptsd, pleassssssssssssssse!

 

[KP the nut]

(((Cat))), sending strength (and tissues;)).

 

[KP the nut]

I'm feeling relaxed today. My biggest decision was which kind of body moisturiser to use after my shower. I opted for one my daughter bought me for my birthday

 

[cat]

(((Cat))), sending strength (and tissues;)).

Thanks KP, I hoped I'd gone past these bad days.

Keep up your good work, so pleased you're having a relaxing day

 

[amethist]

Angry with myself.

I have somehow put safe/lost our spare front door key and our patio door key.

Meaning putting them away safe when we went to Manchester at the beginning of January. Lost because I have not got a clue where I put them.

I have searched drawers boxes, cupboards you name it today, and not a sight of them. Both on the same type of key-ring that is not easy to miss.