What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Srain]

((((((((((((((Sammy))))))))))))))I don't know how it's possible but I think some of the hate is pain, I'm sorry you are going through all of this.

I am feel very anxious this morning, I have a doctor's appointment about my eyes, I've been having issues again, blech. Once again it's a combo of having to try to look semi-human then endure some strange person literally getting right up in face and touching me. Man, I do not like that! At least my appt is early this morning so once it's over then it's over and I have the rest of the day with the Fur Sisters.

 

[CraftyCath]

I have a cold or is it hay fever or is it both?!

Yup, it is both! I just want to close all my windows and go to sleep but I have to much to do. :( (And I'll be subject to the football on TV later :eek:) :rolleyes:

 

[Chincho]

I'm feeling a tiny bit better than the past two days, but I'm still triggered and sad.

Hugs to all that need one!

 

[KP the nut]

(And I'll be subject to the football on TV later :eek:) :rolleyes:

Damn timings. We had it all planned for a 5pm kick off. H would watch the football, I'd walk the dogs and hang out here. Then later we would watch a movie and have a nice meal.

Oh well, the best laid plans. The football is a 7.45pm kick off. H has said he won't watch it and will see the highlights later, luckily for me he only watches the England games and often gives up on them. I've told him he can watch it, but we'll see.

 

[KP the nut]

I'm feeling at peace today. On Monday H goes back to work, in fact he is away overnight on Monday, so today is the last day of our holiday. I feel let down by the weather, it is still raining so no nice lounging around the garden.

I'm feeling proud that we did go out for a walk together. I am making the effort to do things with him. It is now, when my mind is in a better place that I realise just how much I shut him out. It is an effort but it does make us both happier. Maybe if I keep pushing myself, one day it will feel 'normal' and not an effort.

(((HUGS)))

 

[KP the nut]

(((((Sammy))))), (((((Rainy_Daze))))) and all who need a ((((((HUG))))))

 

[Jen93]

I'm extremely annoyed.

Freaking out.

Conflicted, frustrated.

Confused

Sad

Innocent

Childish

Yesterday in class I got really weird, wanted to yell at my friend to stop laughing at me because I just got hit, kept looking around the room for a corner to stand in; when I realized nobody else was standing in a corner or moving to stand in a corner I got annoyed. I took out my hearing aids because I didn't want anybody to catch my hearing loss (nobody noticed I took them out. Put them back in and wondered what the hell happened twenty minutes later.)

And in that class, I'm doing really well. She likes the whole fact that I'm sort of delving into wondering how we're supposed to view kids. She doesn't realize that I'm having to delve into my trauma slightly for my emotions on the subjects she talks about, and then duck out of it after.

I'm feeling emotionally drained- but as long as I keep getting good grades- and she hasn't mentioned being freaked out or given any indication she's freaked out- it's all good right?

I need a hug.

 

[Bubba]

((((((((((((((((((((JEN)))))))))))))))))))))....hugs and good thoughts coming your way!!!!!!!!

I actually feel good today. I feel somewhat calm and empowered. I've been doing this guided imagery for protection every morning before I get up. The alarm goes off and then I turn it on, put it under my pillow, keep my eyes closed and just listen. Sometimes I drift in and out - but the tape says that's ok - that my subconscious is still getting it. It says to do it 1-2 times a day for several weeks. I'm on week 2. I don't know if this is what has helped or if it's the grounding and breathing exercises my T has given me - but I don't care. I feel good today and it's so nice to have that for a change.

Last night my husband sent me a very annoying email - basically telling me that what I wrote was "wrong" - hmmm...those are my feelings, I was being honest - how that be wrong? It makes me see once again just how unhealthy he is and how bad he is for me. He doesn't listen and he doesn't accept me for me. I'm going to reply sometime today - but the good news is - at first my anxiety started to escalate when I read it. But then I did what my T said - I imagined an energy field around me - and only I can allow anything to break that barrier. So I decided I wasn't going to give him the power to come into my energy field. I went back to reading the 2nd book in "50 Shades of Grey" - and I felt much calmer. Later I was able to think about that email just a little bit and I decided that he is messed up - not me.

It feels so good to keep that IC under control. I hope tomorrow and the rest of the weekend go as well as today :p.

 

[rainy_daze]

Hugs to all that need one!

Thanks for the hug. I've had so many hugs from people in the forum, if I had £1 for every one I'd buy you all ice cream or something else if you don't like ice cream (which sounds impossible, how can you not like ice cream ;)).

I feel: Restless, anxious, disappointment (in self), anger, tired, sick (physical, but it counts as a feeling), vulnerable, depressed, scared/fearful, brain overloaded/chaotic (how do you describe that as a feeling? I can't find the word to express it and it's frustrating me). Phew! That's hard to acknowledge but it feels better to share.

Today I also got to experience some happiness/hopeful feelings though. I made peace with my boyfriend who drove me to an insane level of anger yesterday, albeit unintentionally, and of course I over reacted at the time. Still, the stress builds up til it overflows:eek:.

Hopefully I'll feel calmer soon because I'm going to attempt concentrating on a film now (wish me luck). My brain needs a break.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I am feeling sad, won't get granddaughter for the weekend and do not know if we will see my daughter for Fathers Day. I hope so. I will go shopping tommorow and lift my spirits. I had a good day until I heard the news. I know she is turning into a teenager and it is time for more independence. But it is so hard. I just feel so very sad. I am missing her.

 

[goingonhope]

I had been in much sickness from stress, emotional as well as physical pain yesterday and had fallen asleep balling my eyes out that night before, yet today I feel practically nothing. :( Guess I'm feeling kinda numb and certainly spacy. Perhaps from the Remeron prescribed me yesterday which I started last night.

 

[^^FlyingSolo^^]

(((((((((((((((Gizmo))))))))))))))) (((((((((((((((((ITL)))))))))))))))))))) Big hugs! My brain feels like mush. I'm constantly worrying. And I'm learning all these new terms on here about different disorders. And I'm thinking, oh maybe I have that, or that, or that. I feel like a scrambled egg!