I have been suffering from PTSD all my life.
Under hypnosis I recalled being abused by my mother and her lover on more than one occasion, involving me in oral sex with the lover and sometimes by the lover on his own. I dismissed it as something that my mind had created, a kind of fantasy.
I lived with this for five years until, unprompted, one of my sisters told me that as a child our mother had involved her in sexual activity with her uncle (my mothers brother).
My mother admitted a long time ago to my sister that her brother had sexually abused her when they were children, though vehemently denied have been a perpetrator. My sister has actual memories and became seriously anorexic in her teens. My other sister then said she remembered something similar.
I am currently having therapy. My marriage has failed because I was unable to respond sexually to my husband. Sometimes I feel very upset because it has deprived me of the right to an ordinary relationship.
I spent years being depressed and socially isolated. I find it impossible to trust. I am getting better at this now, but still have few friends. I'd just like to be able to have a happy relationship.
I'm living alone now, and miss my family who are grown up now, and husband, although my husband was very unkind to me sometimes because of the frustration, shouted at all the time, and told that I am a failure as a wife etc etc. So at least I don't have to deal with that any more, bu am lonely and wondering why this had to happen to a child of six.
Under hypnosis I recalled being abused by my mother and her lover on more than one occasion, involving me in oral sex with the lover and sometimes by the lover on his own. I dismissed it as something that my mind had created, a kind of fantasy.
I lived with this for five years until, unprompted, one of my sisters told me that as a child our mother had involved her in sexual activity with her uncle (my mothers brother).
My mother admitted a long time ago to my sister that her brother had sexually abused her when they were children, though vehemently denied have been a perpetrator. My sister has actual memories and became seriously anorexic in her teens. My other sister then said she remembered something similar.
I am currently having therapy. My marriage has failed because I was unable to respond sexually to my husband. Sometimes I feel very upset because it has deprived me of the right to an ordinary relationship.
I spent years being depressed and socially isolated. I find it impossible to trust. I am getting better at this now, but still have few friends. I'd just like to be able to have a happy relationship.
I'm living alone now, and miss my family who are grown up now, and husband, although my husband was very unkind to me sometimes because of the frustration, shouted at all the time, and told that I am a failure as a wife etc etc. So at least I don't have to deal with that any more, bu am lonely and wondering why this had to happen to a child of six.
