I deserve to have the right to life that is in my country's constitution, and the liberty to reside in my own home.
I deserve the right to happiness as I define it as long as it offers me no more or no less than what most assume that they have from birth.
I deserve to define my spouse if I had one and to have my spouse have the medical power to be with me and to fight for my life when I am unable to do so.
It is an ugly thought to know that my life is less valuable than most other lives in my country, and even uglier to know that legally my right to live relies less on my ability to recover from additional brain surgery and more on my ability 1) to persuade the medical profession to see me as a person rather than a financial write-off and 2) to keep my abusive, but legally in control, bio family from finding out what hospital I am in (and likewise this hospital from finding them) until after my "last chance" neurosurgeon has had an opportunity to save my brain and my life.
Not many on here know why I have kept my ICU location a secret. It is because the only legal family I have, according to the state I am in, happens to also be my mother and my primary/long-standing abuser - how can that be ok in this country? A DNR sounds so much safer to me since I was unable to conceive or adopt children in this "key state" and my former "illegal" spouse had no legal rights to my medical care while in my life (let alone the simple fact that she has long since sought comfort elsewhere).
PTSD and Marginalization, the two "gifts" that never stop giving!
Sorry M'O for going off topic with your most terrific thread! Please forgive me this one depressive indescretion!
Oh and btw M'O, please know that your life DOES still have meaning, and that you DO have much left inside you to offer this world! I, for one, am blessed to be getting to know you and to have your support!
You ALL deserve to find your own unique path to personal freedom!
