I'm frustrated. I have been conditioned so much by my family that I can't feel my emotions as much as I would if I were at school right now. I know I'm excited, it's like I can feel it bubbling inside me (that's really the only description I can think of) but my emotional "block" created by being around my parents is keeping me from expressing it fully. I suppose I'm just wary too, any time I express too much emotion I get in trouble.
I don't care, though, as soon as my nieces and nephews get here I will not let that block stop me. I refuse to let them turn out like me when it comes to expressing emotions. Determined. That's the emotion, I think, when it comes to the kids.