What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Kim500]

I feel tired. I want to sleep for a hundred years.

(((((FaerieJayne)))))

 

[safenow]

(((( deelerock )))) if you allow safe, gentle hugs.

safenow

 

[Britt.f7]

Chat scares me for some reason. I'm just uncomfortable with it, though I don't know why since I do like talking through these posts.

I started to feel bad, or worthless, a short time ago today. It actually started yesterday. Just writing about it now, because I was trying to think what is different from the prior days, I realized what is probably causing it. I'm going to be with my rather large family tomorrow. It always fills me with anxiety in the days proceeding it and bad messages. Have to keep telling myself it might be a very nice time.

 

[Kim500]

I do wish I knew how to talk to people without making it sound like I'm thinking I'm better than everyone else, because I'm not.

Hi there safenow! I'm sorry you're not feeling so good. :( Isn't it a good sign that you want to be around people at this time of year and not isolate? :) I know there's a song. I think it's called "People need People"! Also, this quote comes to mind: "No man is an island."

P.S. I had to comment on what I quoted above from your post. You never ever come across that way on here, so I can't imagine you coming across that way with people in person. What do you think? Do you feel that you come across that way or are you just going by what someone told you about how they think you come across?

 

[NIKI]

I am feeling anxious because people will be coming over my house for the holidays and I am afraid I didn't clean enough yet...in a little while I will be in a panic state of mind while I am cleaning. *sigh* It happens every time.

 

[safenow]

Niki, if they are coming to see your house, hire a cleaning crew. If they are coming to see you, it will be fine just the way you have it. Take some good cleansing breathes and try to relax.

 

[safenow]

Kim, I think it's my last journal entry. Someone once told me that I sound like I'm lecturing people, or asking them to do what I do, and if they don't I put them down. I ask when I ever put anyone down for that, and they didn't answer. I never expect expect others to be me. I just wish to heck they would be themselves and allow me to be myself. Ya know?

It's okay Britt. I understand about chat. It was just a thought. Think I'm going to get some cheese and go lay down and watch Harry Potter or Garfield. Maybe I can fall asleep and start over.

 

[NIKI]

Thank you safenow. I feel like if I don't look as good as I can and my house isn't really, really clean that people will talk bad about me...because my mother used to do that to people all the time. So it is set in my mind that people will do that too.

 

[safenow]

Not everyone is like your mom, Niki. When I go to a friends house, I never worry about the house. I only care about them. Now, saying that, I must add something. For me, when i'm not doing well, my house is the last thing on my mind. So those who really know me can tell when i'm not doing well. But they never say anything in public. They come over later and see if it's still bad, and if it is they take me out for a drive so we can talk and they can find out what's going on.

I hope all goes well for you and you all have a wonderful holiday.

safenow

 

[Kim500]

safenow - The reason I asked was because sometimes people just don't know what they are talking about or seeing clearly. Remember, we look at things subjectively, through our own filters based on what we've experienced and learned, so it is highly possible that this person looked at you through their own DISTORTED filters and saw you NOT as you really are. Maybe this person had experienced people telling them what to do in the past and they felt powerless to make their own decisions, so they always SEE poeple as telling them what to do even though they're not!

 

[Britt.f7]

I understand about chat.

Maybe you could explain this to me, since I don't understand it. I've been bad about that even with the friends that are not my online friends. I'm sorry, I really, really, am.:(

 

[JustBe]

Chat scares me too Britt,

I think it's because it's too fast and I don't feel that I have time to think my response though or edit my words.

It's too much like having a "real" conversation.