What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[GreenFrog2]

Feeling horrified, alone, scared, exhausted, mis-understood, lonely, hopeless, frightened.
trying to see some positives but not much luck with that at the moment.

 

[Kim500]

(((((((((((((((((((GF2)))))))))))))))))))))

 

[goingonhope]

I've felt reasonably good today.

It's been about 5 days of minimal pain and this always feels good. Therefore, relieved and happy. I haven't been struggling with mobility in turning over in bed either for what I think is a valuable chunk of time, this feels very positive and is exciting for me.

And, my daughter has a friend over, my H was willing to pitch in tonight with an enormous job we've got going on and our son though frequently very angry did find much to laugh about tonight. So all this is pretty cool.

Guessing I feel: Relieved, happy, positive, excited, grateful, pleased, fairly relaxed, and hopeful.

And, somewhat tense to feel hopeful and say I feel hopeful.

 

[ms spock]

How I'm feeling?? Really upset, I feel like I can't control myself from doing stupid things when I drink alcohol, which is basically from morning till night, with breaks in between. I'm self medicating so I'd don't freak out.

Have you thought about detox, rehab or AA Kim? Maybe that would give you the support to stop drinking.

 

[ms spock]

I feel desparate and needy. I feel encrusted with grief and loss. I am fearful.

 

[KatB]

In response to Kim500, spaced out, numb, and completely overdriven by rage!:speechless: I agree.

I just keep losing it here. At home, I am just losing it more and more. I am feeling paranoid,insane, and maybe intensely shocked by my fear of loss of control and extreme edginess. This is not my Thanksgiving/Christmas/New Year holiday season. It really just isnt. I was cursing, screaming and yelled in the bathroom when I was showering. My mom heard me. She asked if I was doing all of that. I said yeah. Minutes later, thats how I was feeling: extreme shame for my reactions and just exhausted.

I know God knows wat is right for me and He will make things right. But more and more, I just feel the need to break things in order to really express what I feel. no more tolerance or respect for my family. :blackeye: You can't give what you dont have. They drained me out.

 

[Kim500]

Have you thought about detox, rehab or AA Kim?

There is a disorder (I forgot the name and couldn't find it) where you will drink alcohol a lot for a period and then completely stop and don't even want alcohol for a period and then start up again. I think I have that because it's always been like that for me!

I'm sorry you're not feeling too good. :( Here's some more hugs! (((((((((((((((((Ms Spock))))))))))))))))))))):hug:

 

[Changing4Best]

I'm feeling hopeful that it won't be a boring day. My house helper is coming to do my dishes for me; she is supplied by County Social Services because I just cannot bring myself to do them. My hands are numb with neuroapathy and they can slip and break. Then I relive being beaten for breaking a dish when I was two! My abuser was asked to do the dishes by my parents, but decided that was not a man's job. So! I was placed up on the kitchen stool and "Taught" how to do them....

 

[Kim500]

I was placed up on the kitchen stool and "Taught" how to do them....

I'm sorry about that dear Sheila. ((((Sheila)))) I'm so glad you have someone coming to do those dishes for you!:hug:

 

[Kim500]

I am feeling paranoid,insane, and maybe intensely shocked by my fear of loss of control and extreme edginess. This is not my Thanksgiving/Christmas/New Year holiday season.

I totally understand Kat! (((((((((((((((((((((((((Kat)))))))))))))))))))))))))

 

[CraftyCath]

and our son though frequently very angry did find much to laugh about tonight.

Hope, I so know what that is like. ((((((((((:hug:'s to you)))))))))).

 

[findingmyway]

Where did you find that kind of faith? I use to believe in Jesus. When I was a kid I would fantasize that I would die and he would hold me and make my sadness and pain go away. Of course that never happened. My family was a part of a religious cult and after I finally was separated from the cult, gradually may faith declined and has continued to do so over the years. I still believe in a Higher power. I practice Judiasim in my own home and life without being a formal convert. Christian holidays still haunt me because the rest of my family celebrates them, and so I can't seem to escape the horrors associated with them.