I Feel Like A Failure

[saffy]

Thank you Sailorgal. The business is not doing that well at the moment, but, I will continue to try that is all I can do.

Yes I have seen this with applications too. One day we will all get lucky :)

best wishes
Saffy :)

 

[NarcSis]

One day we WILL all get lucky.

Big sighs, patience - how I'm finding it I'll never know - one day at a time, one step at a time and when I feel like I'm fraying at the seams, lay flat on the floor, let go of it all and tell myself it takes time.

Unfortunately for me, my stress cup sits at near full most of the time - I (and 'experts') have decided the caring field is no longer a good fit for me. Nothing related to healthcare. :( but I know it's what's best - stubborn me still fights it.

I am thinking of studying for my CHRP, I did some research and I qualify to write the exam as I am....with a little bit of a refresher but one step at a time, right?

I may try to sell some of my paintings and artwork for extra $$.

Calm. Patience. Breathe. I'm not a failure.

 

[saffy]

Calm. Patience. Breathe. I'm not a failure.

You will find you path Medic72 :)

I saw this today thought I would share

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I found this inspiring. :)

You certainly sound like a fighter and maybe a change in career will be the best thing to get you out of this rut. I would like to see some of your work any chance of you sharing :)

A lot of medics are combining their knowledge with alternative methods of healing, any thoughts about that?

anyway, keep grounded and be happy with your art, release and be peaceful.

best wishes
Saffy :)

 

[NarcSis]

I am actually interested in the mind-body-spirit take on healing trauma, simply because it has been so helpful for me. Figuring out how to get experience in the field or somehow insert myself there is a whole other issue. I've got both psychology and business degrees but no experience in either field.

I'd love to eventually get a Masters of...something but I need a job first to fund it.

I think my main issue right now is that my function is still day to day so it's hard to decide on a path when I have no consistency in any one mindset. Full of ideas, grasping at every straw, not sure where i'm going wrong.

 

[saffy]

I know how that feels Medic72, :)

Having good knowledge of psychology is very good for a lot of alternative therapies. Have you thought of art therapy?

best of luck with everything and if you want to brainstorm we are here to help.

best wishes
Saffy :)

 

[NarcSis]

Thanks, I actually did look into art therapy but I don't have the $14,000 for tuition. Bursary programs only cover about $4,000, so it's still not realistic. I'd love to incorporate art into work.

I've applied as a park warden because I do love the outdoors and being active....no word yet.

I'm still really tenacious when it comes to advocacy issues or the non-profit sector......museums, art galleries....

The tough thing for me is that I can pretty much Do anything but those three seem the most interesting to me.

Like I said, no experience to demonstrate in those fields....my volunteer work is not targeting anything I feel I could use.

Ideas?

 

[Sailorgal]

I like the park warden idea. Someone said to me once it's the best job because you're far away from people! And if you don't like them, you can tell them to go home! :)

I hope you find something that really interests you.

 

[saffy]

my volunteer work is not targeting anything I feel I could use.

There might be other volunteer work to do in that feild? There might be drop in centres for art therapy.

When I was training in equestrian psychology, rather than volunteer I shadowed people to gain experience that way.

Maybe you could hire a local hall an hour a week and advertise for people who might want to combine art and meditation, or something like that? (As long as you have insurance you may not need extra 'medical' certificates.)
It might lead to other things?

Or could you teach art to people as well?

$14000 sounds a lot considering what you know already.

With all your skills I can understand why you feel stuck as you are not able to express yourself properly.

Hope you are well today :)

Saffy :)

 

[mamachick]

Its been over a month since my only interview, the only suitable job in 70 mile radius. A few days ago I resided to the fact that they had hired someone. I figured it was just not meant to be and that I am to do something else. Today the local Director called and said staff out ill and wires crossed, she thought the regional director had contacted me. She offered me the job. So tomorrow I contact HR, schedule a computer training day and background check. I am so excited. Its been 4 yrs that have passed because I was assaulted during leave from work and unable to return at first, then lack of confidence to follow through. Its complicated. The good news is that if something good can happen for me, it can for anyone.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Congratulations brat 17. I am very happy for you. It shows that perservering and not giving up leads to good things. Good for you and WTG!!!:cool: Very cool.

 

[saffy]

wow really pleased for you Brat17. That is just fantastic news. best of luck with everything.

Don't be a stranger here though :)

best wishes
Saffy :)

 

[mamachick]

Thanks guy. Its just part time-which is what I need. I have been going bugshits not working.

I do have to share this though. I kept thinking-what is wrong with me, maybe Im not hired because they see me flawed, maybe one of my references, etc MUST BE ME-and some flaw. Then I forced myself to stop it over the past 2 weeks and just keep looking. My daughter gets really mad at me when I think in this destructive manner. It had nothing to do with failure, as I believe is true of others. The staff was off sick and I fell through a crack. Even if I would not have got the job, I started telling myself, some other candidate had xy or z. Around here, its often who you know and a lot of hiring family, etc.

For me, its so hard to not feel flawed, job or no job. Now it will be learning new stuff, or re--learning I guess, so I need to rise to the occassion. I think this is really good because when I delve into what I need to do, I get out of myself. Feelings about self may become more neutral, and eventually positive. (I am speaking from past). When I dont have time to criticize myself, I have found that I do better. Just some thoughts. Again, thanks.