What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Leda]

Not to bad :) Had a good nights sleep, that always helps.

 

[Jen93]

I'm feeling really, really, really shaken. :cry:

 

[Queen Boudica]

I'm feeling really really ashamed of myself. I was so triggered and so under pressure from recent events that I had a massive panic attack and ended up doing things and accusing people of doing things that I should never have done as I was being so irrational. And I kept having panic attack after panic attack and then I ended up accusing my psychologist of doing something and he hadn't. I left him a message because I thought he had done something really awful and it turned out he had not but someone else had compromised him but I was so upset I did not think I just thought it was him even though I could not believe he would do such a thing.

I have apologised to everyone but I feel so ashamed I got into that state and I feel really guilty because when I left that message I was so irate and my psychologist must have got it and not understood what was going on at all. He eventually phoned me after he worked it out and explained what had happened but I was still in a panic and I did not realise what exactly was happening.

Now it has suddenly hit me how awful that message must have sounded to him and he was coming back from a Valentines weekend break and I must have wrecked it. I feel so ashamed. He has done so much for me and I just completely jumped to the wrong conclusion. I feel so awful and I hate I became that way. It has hit me how bad I get when I panic and I just hate it that I can hurt people because I am so irrational and out of it. I don't want to be like this. Feel so awful.

 

[Froggie]

((((Lizio)))), with your explanations, I'm sure that things are straightened out. Gentle hugs to you sweet lady

 

[pumpkinpie]

Irritable, irritated. :mad:

 

[amethist]

Feeling the future for hubby and I can only keep getting better.

I am aware that they may be the odd step backwards, but mainly they will be forwards now.

 

[Britt.f7]

Feeling satisfied with myself because I actually did things other then sitting around on the computer. I know all days can't be like this, but it is great when they are. I feel great because I feel like I took a load off of my husband by being able to do things around the house. He still had to help, but he did not have to do all and that is a great thing, since he shouldn't have to. It feels good to help and be a functioning member of this family!

 

[SweetPeaandSunBird]

Embarrassed and a bit defeated: I dropped off the side of the earth (the earth being this wonderful forum) because I had a flashback at my job site, in front of my boss. I walked away from this site, I just fell away. I was put on a new medication so I went off the previous one (because my insurance no longer covers it) and, voilá, that old pre-teen rage in me took me so far back.

I thought I was doing so much better; then, splat on the floor, and I'm picking myself up all over again.

Apologies to all for having faded away. I have best wishes for all to have a good start to the week. May it be strewn with winning lottery tickets and sunny weather.

 

[pumpkinpie]

I had a flashback at my job site, in front of my boss.

Hi, SPSB, Can you tell me what you did during this reaction at work and what led up to it? I ask because work was really the only place I had problems that I just could not overcome, becsuse of my reactions there

 

[Philippa]

sticky and hot, but not cranky from the heat outside.

Well and accepting of the situation with my parents and brothers, without having any conflict today.

In relax mode, in the mood to create but procrastinating.

 

[GreenFrog2]

I feel like I am groping around in my life for some happiness and sanity. Just a little bit of joy! Some relaxation and calm. Someone to love me, who I can love in return. Can;t wait for this part of my journey towards health to be over - am hoping so much that I will stop spinning and be able to deal with who I am and how I am - once I can do this I think that I will be able to keep an even keel and make gradual progress towards good health.

But for now I feel like I have far to much to deal with to be able to make good progress with any aspect of my life - and it will take some time for each area to settle down so that I have space in my head for healing.

 

[Annicus]

I am feeling like a fool for pretending to be so together for so long. I feel like I've let the darkness control me. I am feeling slightly insane knowing I behave in self destructive ways yet I still do it.

I am feeling like I let my negative emotions get the best of me. I feel like I've been slipping. I feel like I'd rather organize my emotions into compartments rather than dealing with it.

I am feeling like I need to accept what happened to me and grow from it rather than hide beneath it.