Hey all, I'll keep it very brief and to the point.
I was abused throughout my childhood by my mother. Escaped to college, disowned her. Tried many self-medicating methods to deal with PTSD symptoms, such as self-injury, alcoholism, etc... Became suicidal, threw myself into dangerous situations. Suicide attempt, which no one knew about until months later. (I tried it via alcohol poisoning. I firmly believe the fact that I woke up the next day is a miracle. Called out sick for 3 days while I detoxed). Was raped. Finally started to research what was wrong with me, started self-treatment, and reached out for therapy about a year ago. Therapy has been helping a lot, but I get frustrated with the cyclical nature of PTSD. I think things are going well then *bam* I'm hit with a bad day or a bad week full of triggers or just too much stress for me to handle and I wind up unable to get out of bed or blowing up at people. I'm lucky in that I have a great bf who is very supportive of me, but I thought being a member of a support group might help to take some of the support pressure off him.
Hope that was the right length!
I was abused throughout my childhood by my mother. Escaped to college, disowned her. Tried many self-medicating methods to deal with PTSD symptoms, such as self-injury, alcoholism, etc... Became suicidal, threw myself into dangerous situations. Suicide attempt, which no one knew about until months later. (I tried it via alcohol poisoning. I firmly believe the fact that I woke up the next day is a miracle. Called out sick for 3 days while I detoxed). Was raped. Finally started to research what was wrong with me, started self-treatment, and reached out for therapy about a year ago. Therapy has been helping a lot, but I get frustrated with the cyclical nature of PTSD. I think things are going well then *bam* I'm hit with a bad day or a bad week full of triggers or just too much stress for me to handle and I wind up unable to get out of bed or blowing up at people. I'm lucky in that I have a great bf who is very supportive of me, but I thought being a member of a support group might help to take some of the support pressure off him.
Hope that was the right length!