How Do I Cope With This?

[therapybankrupt]

Hello Friends!

I decided to finally get out of the house and join an exercise class. I went a few times and was building my confidence. Last week I went to exercise and ran into someone I once new. Not one time but everytime I went to change rooms.

I have been having a terrible time since then. Very symptomatic. I could not figure out what was going on with me. This morning I woke up to flashback of him violating me without my consent. I am in a state of fear. How will I ever go back to that club again?

Thanks Tb

 

[safenow]

If you will allow me, I send you a safe, gentle hug.

Do you think perhaps that person is making a point of being by each room you want to go to? Is it possible you can change clubs? Perhaps, be refunded, and when ask why, tell them truth regarding that person being someone who upsets you greatly.

I found I can't be at a place where those who trigger me might be. I just can't. I pay too high a price.

I know one time, I was in a place where a reporter kept following me from room to room, trying to gain information. Finally, the last place I was in, when I saw them there, I said, "I feel as though my home has been invaded again." Which got a really bad reaction from the owners. I never went back. If they want to cater to those type of people, fine. I don't care to be there any longer.

 

[therapybankrupt]

I found I can't be at a place where those who trigger me might be. I just can't. I pay too high a price.

Thanks for the hug safenow. I really appreciate it. I was feeling very alone. I am sorry you to suffer from this. Almost angry with myself that I can not be tougher and just deal.

I just can not go there. I know he is a trigger now and the fear of seeing him again makes it impossible for me to go. Again I am finding myself in isolation. Fearing putting myself out there cause of the unknown. I am afraid to go out knowing he is in my area. I thought that I had run away far enough from my triggers. I think I need to move again if I am to get out. Thanks for your advice.

Tb

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I think you are very wise not to go back. I do not know what his deal is but your safety is paramount.

Please take really good care of yourself. I hope you do not have to move. You have so much on your plate right now.

Keep on taking good care of yourself and be safe. Big hugs.

 

[therapybankrupt]

I think you are very wise not to go back. I do not know what his deal is but your safety is paramount

Thanks gizmo! You are so kind the hugs are so helpful. I think you are right I do know what he is capable of. Not wise........

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I am reading old threads today and was wondering what you chose to do and how you are doing. Hugs to you.

 

[therapybankrupt]

Hi Gizmo! Thanks for asking. I have not gone back. I have done EMDR around the abuse with the perp. My therapist would like me to try it because she thinks after the treatment w have done on that trauma he will mean nothing. I get that but why should I have to worry when I am going out for enjoyment. She thinks I would be fine now. It would be a good test for me and boost my trust and belief in the process. She is very sure of the EMDR work she does. I am not that confident yet.

I found another location a little further away that is an all woman club. It is affiliated with the other one so I loose nothing. I think I am going to give it a try this week! :) Hugs back and thanks again!
TB

 

[therapybankrupt]

I found I can't be at a place where those who trigger me might be. I just can't. I pay too high a price.

Hi Safenow! You have that right! I may have processed and reprocessed the trauma involved but I still am suffering the PTSD symptoms as of now. Thanks for your input! Hugs if you except.

TB

 

[safenow]

Hugs if you except.

Yes. From you, Imin'll always accept. In return, if you will allow me. I not only send you a hug, but also a beautiful butterfly to kiss your cheek.

safenow