What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Froggie]

Thank you dear forum friends ... ((((:hug:s)))) to all who need them

Yeterday I realized that about 90% of the souvenirs that I have of my mom aren't nice ones and that I have very few good memories. I believe she suffered from PTSD but was mis diagnosed, so we (the children) got the lashings of her outbursts, her alcoholism and bipolarity.

Yesterday I wondered if it wasn't for my childhood, would I have cracked with the pedophile thing and ended up with PTSD ? Was my childhood a foundation to get PTSD later in life ?????

I'm going through a lot of existentiel questionning AND feeling numb and hurting at the same time. This is so odd.

 

[CraftyCath]

((((((((Froggie)))))))) :hug:

You have been going through the works sweet Froggie. My thoughts, prayers and love go out to you across the miles. May you find answers soon xx

I have the most wonderful day yesterday with KP. We sent the men out for a walk and sat in KP's beautiful garden in the sunshine - that's right, SUNSHINE!

I am still tired and achy but I'm getting there with the iron tablets and rest. I woke up in the night with cramp in my calf; I couldn't get rid of it so I got out of bed to try to walk it off but a soon as I pit my other foot down I got cramp in that too. My calf is now very sore so I am resting it.

I had to send an e-mail to someone I have been having difficulties with. I did it the other day and she just kept fobbing me off with excuses so I pushed her to tell me the truth. She hasn't replied and I don't expect she will but at least I know I was honest and said nothing in my e-mail in an unloving or selfish way. I am proud that I stood up for myself.:tup:

 

[Deleted member 6617]

Ahhh Froggie, I so wish I could be physically by your side! Sending you warmest thoughts! :hug:

 

[beautifulbroken]

I feel nervous and pissed. Nervous because I go in Friday for a follow up and tests because I have a mysterious lump in my underarm that you can't see but feel. Oh joy. But I'm not too worried until we get the results back. It could be nothing. HA! I'm pissed because my 19 year old son who is bipolar was having an episode during a change of meds and keyed 2 cars. It was caught on tape and now he faces being charged. Oh joy. Of course we aren't really speaking. But we will have to when he needs money for the attorney. Blah! I just want to vomit.

 

[shoulderblades]

Wretchedly dysphoric. Intensely depressed and discontent today. Have been like this most of the week. Having lots of "What's the point?" thoughts. It's exhausting.

 

[KP the nut]

I feel like I want to run away and not deal with life.

 

[ms spock]

I feel a little less wired, stressed out, lost, SI, harassed, lost, helpless and lonely today. I feel better today.

 

[ms spock]

Yesterday I wondered if it wasn't for my childhood, would I have cracked with the pedophile thing and ended up with PTSD ? Was my childhood a foundation to get PTSD later in life ?????

Hey Froggie,

sorry to read about your mother. I hope you are okay.

This might give you some insight.

[DLMURL]http://healthland.time.com/2012/02/...rain-for-future-mental-illness/#ixzz2SPiZp6Bl[/DLMURL]

[DLMURL]http://www.cdc.gov/ace/index.htm[/DLMURL]

My psychiatrist believes people are often primed in earlier life for PTSD.

 

[KP the nut]

I feel tired.

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

A bit worn out.

 

[goingonhope]

I started out being and feeling overwhelmed and now after calling a resource and seeking some support, next reading about a lack of family support and while bombarded by many worries, I'm now not only depressed but feeling lost, dense, slow, confused, unsure, tired and afraid.

So I guess, thus far I'm :( today.

 

[StarChild]

A bit frustrated. Just boiled some 3 min. eggs for me and my dogs. (They enjoy half a yolk every week, for their health.) And made some pasta too. And even during this very simple cooking, my bloody heart wasn't working properly, and I had to return to bed.

I'm also a bit sad right now. Feeling absolutely useless. :(